Fairytale's existence.

One Day

2012-01-29T17:59:00.001+08:00

You can live your whole life not realising that what you're looking for is right in front of you.

Finished my book which i've bought for 25 days on last Friday. (: It's definitely worthy of the morning bus rides, 15min-silent reading in school, and otw home bus rides i've spent reading it. So, engaging and just, lovely. Okay i need a new book. Why birthday so far. Sian.

Still haven't got my on-the-wishlist-for-ages ss3 dvd.
Or should i just wait for the ss4 one. AH but i want both.
Or should i wait for SHINee's comeback album.
Or just give in to the temptation and get DBSK albums.

Too many needs.

Major headache and still have to go Godma's later.

I don't want so many tuitions.

Phone. Book. Albums. Earpiece. Health. Time.

Infinite.

2012-01-26T20:29:00.001+08:00

And at that moment, i swear we were infinite.

I'm trying to enjoy each day as much as possible. Told Shan that we should enjoy, even if exhausted, we've got each other on our backs. :)

Happy birthday, our Hero forever. You're more than a miracle in my beliefs. Somehow, cause of you, i think my life became a whole truckload better than ever. And thank you. For everything.

Dex and Em. Em and Dex.

Gamble Gamble Win Win!

2012-01-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

It's Chinese New Year! First day yesterday, so went visiting at Uncle's place then went back home to invite friends and cousins over gamble gamble win win! So far angbaos add together 274 first day! Woosh.

Photos:

Gosh tanline tanline. X:

People say we look alot like each other and we're twins. Sian max. LOL.

Texas poker in process~ Lost money like f. But it's okay, fun more impt.

Group photos.

Subsequent group photos all in Junyuan's dslr cos mine went flat flat flat and apparently the 10s timer i've seen before's gone. LOL. And in every group photo we look like gang. Walao. All Jingfu's fault.

Wanted to visit Godma's later but she's unavailable so she said the weekends instead. :) Sad life i have, pineapple tarts for breakfast. Well well, I'm satified with the money i received already haha, more than i expected.

Jan's almost over, and it's Jaejoong's birthday soon. :)

Mummy says bro and sis going to have their wedding banquet end of this year or something. O:

Can't wait for this tiring year to be over quicker. Totally anticipating tertiary level life. Making new friends, and still keeping contact with Shan, table eight friends. :) 2013 fast fast.

Contradiction, wanting to have a kid in dragon year but too young to get married, so next dragon year i'm too old, but don't want to get married because want to collect more angbaos, equals to no child. ):

Letter Challenge Day 2

2012-01-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

Your dreams.

I have no idea why i'm typing a letter to my dreams. S'well, it's still cute.

Dear dreams,

I've yet to figure out what you really is, or are. I have loads of dreams, i dream everyday, every, free lonely moment. Dreams like, visiting every part of the world, having fun with friends, and hopefully finding a sweet gorgeous humorous man in my life; having the courage to actually pursue a degree in law; being a volunteer in some organisations that reach out to the poverty, in Kenya or Cambodia, or just, countries i deem unfortunate to be living in; moving into this small white cottage house built on a piece of grassland belonging to me, enjoying the peace myself; owning a library where food and talking is allowed, and i'll install swings and comfortable beanie seats to just crush on while reading, with a corner whereby i'll be writing, and writing; owning a ranch, where i'll definitely learn riding, then name the white horse Icy, black one Mystery, and brown one Fiery.

I know all my dreams are weird. Like seriously. Okay i know i excluded the rich wife dream. Nic, Mel and Jy laughed like mad when i told them that i'll be freaking rich because i'll get a job that will allow me to meet rich people, then by then i'll be in my private jet, whipping out some 1mm thick phone, only sensitive to my fingerprints and temperature, calling them to join me as i fly them to London for some high tea session. Besides that i'll own a library, and Nic burst out laughing again, because of all things why a library. Why not a theme park or something else. I LIKE AH CANNOT HAR. :P

Yeah, right now this moment, i'm still believing that my owning a ranch dream will become true somehow. Or at least my horses will be named that way. HELLO, i even got my kids' names done already. LOL. And no, i'm not telling you my kids' names.

So yeah, please, dreams, do come true yeah? At least one.

忘れないで ~

Constellations,

2012-01-21T20:44:00.001+08:00

I've never realised how deeply related was the name above to the fanclub's name. Seems like everything was fated still.

Anyway, camp was over. (: Hmmmm, i wouldn't say it was bad la.

Day 1: Had loads of talks about our MBTI test and i just slept mostly throughout the explanations. I'm an INTP, which is said to be one of the rarest types, accounting for 1-5% of the population.

Seek to develop logical explanations for everything that interest them. Check.
Theoretical and abstract, interested more in ideas than in social interaction. Check.
Quiet, contained, flexible, and adaptable. Check. (Well i don't think i'm a noisy person.)
Have unusual ability to focus in depth to solve in their area of interest. Check? Lol, unsure of this though.
Skeptical. Check.
Sometimes critical. Total checked.
Always analytical. Guaranteed checked.

Credits: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INTP

The test is very accurate for most people mostly, i mean, one or two parts of the explanations may not fit but mostly, they do.

Then did games, team-building supposedly. Mood was on a constant change and i didn't really enjoy everything. It was funny at times, but those were rare times. Other than that, i was just bored with the games and irritated that some games required us to stand on grass. My sensitive skin gets rashes when in contact with some substance i forgot what, since P4 we had NDP training on the field and my whole legs gets red, small, itchy spots. Not just me, i think Mingsiew has it too. O:

Day 2: Talks about study tips and goals. Boring. Then went to Sentosa for amazing race. Darn, it was really tiring. I was totally worn out. I think my group was the only group that didn't take a single technology-related machine that required us to not waste too much energy on our legs, except the few escalators. Besides that, every group i've asked said they at least took tram, monorail, or bus, or even all. (Y) Bet the runners totally dread our slowness. Our as in me, and two other members who walked. LOL.

Went for a drink with Shan after that and we talked for almost two hours i think. Shiok max because for the camp, we weren't in the same group at all. That made me sian again. I think the two of us enjoyed it, despite feeling worn out. I really liked her group, mine seemed so boring. Sigh x3.

Day 3: Off to Bedok for dragonboating and some 5km run/walk early in the morning once we took our attendance. Long bus rides to and fro.

Dragonboating was fun, unexpectedly. But f the people that splashed water right inside my left ear 4 times. -.- I went momentarily deaf for awhile 4 times. It was tiring, but fun.

5km run/walk was meaningless. I didn't see the reason to do it. Staying healthy was NOT a valid reason. So yeah, just like previous x-country, walked with Mel and Carina all the way. They were adorable, insisted on walking with me and keeping me in the middle. Mel asked me to sing songs so that they could dance and sing too, and i just totally forgot all the songs. Haha, we only sang all the chorus that we remembered. Talked on the way too, and it felt good to just pour everything out. We were one of the last few lol, who cares. During the last 100 metres i guess, we started singing nursery rhymes wtf, and they didn't know alot i'm surprised.

After that went back school and we're dismissed after prize presentation. Won best class spirit. Surprised x3. Changed and went out with table eight to get some bonding done. Ate ice cream, been long since i've eaten since xmas party. Took photos and the shop was playing random songs ranging from Eng to Chi to Kor. And i know all the songs played lol. When Beast's Soom came on, Mel and i got excited and started dancing anyhow when it was 'breathe in breathe out' and i did my adlib of Yoseob's Idk, because it was one of the songs we were singing during the 5km walk. :P

Initiated to play Running man race mission, and they all obliged. Played two rounds, both the mission teams won, without missions of course lol because it was hard to find a mission to do. Went home after that with the lonely trio, Me, Mel, and Carina. Talked and talked and talked and talked. Told them about my dream about Mel dying because of me, and i woke up crying, instantly texting her i missed you lol. I told her solemnly not to die for hell and heaven's sake, because the dream was so real that i cried like f, and i told her i never ever want to feel the pain of her leaving this world before i do again. Be it because of me or not.

Geez.

Camp overall was okay. Rating the annual camps, it'll be sec 3, sec 2, sec 4, sec 1. I don't even remember what we did in Sec 1. Anyway as long as it's in school, it's boring. Throughout the 3 days, talked more with classmates, and spent time with my long-time friends since sec 1. I like my classmates, all of them are either nice, sweet, funny, or just, okay to talk to. Why haven't i known them better last year? X:

Read the whole day, online and caught up with tumblr. Spent like 4 hours scrolling. D: Watched my usuals, WGM and RM then started on my story. Fruitful, relaxing.

Not finding, the heaven we promised.

2012-01-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

Been a hectic week. With many things going on. Sigh. Sigh.

Anyway, TV's slow. Now then show Startling with each step. :P It's really a nice show with logical plot and touching scenes. People should watch.

So far January has yet to be any fun. It's the third week of the year, yet unhappy things occurred more often than usual. I dislike January always. Start of something new. But not good new.

Camp's coming up soon, and i really hope it's going to be worthwhile. I don't expect much from a studies-based camp cause we're sec 4s, but i do want it to be a time whereby i get to spend alot time with Shan. Ever since the year begun, we haven't been able to really talk for hours like we do last year. I dread amazing race at Sentosa and dragon boating at bedok reservoir. Not because of the people that died there, but, just, i'm not an outdoor person. Sun and water don't match me. I prefer rain and air con, that is of course, i'm not outdoors then it rains. -.-

Looking forward to weekends like since forever.

Which is why a curriculum based life don't suit me at all.

I wished i have someone that understands me like i'm transparent, so that at least to one person, i don't have to explain something explicitly to get myself clear. I need this person to appear in my life really soon, because dear you, i'm exhausted and i want someone to rely on whenever, wherever without me having to ask.

Guess everyone's looking for this person in their lives. Lucky those that already found.

I realised, i didn't even know.

Decided not to go for SS4 still. It's just not the right time yet. They've won the award we all desired, and that's enough for now for me. It's all i've been wishing for them to achieve. I've seen them once, and i know there'll be a second time. Probably till then, i have my full stage. Anticipating. & With the hope that SMTOWN SG will occur, i think, it'll be a much fulfilling experience then. I get to meet them again, them again, them, them, them and hopefully, them as well.

Completed or not, each and everyone of them deserved to be called that name still. They're one, and the same. Hope to the end.

And i'm happy that they all cared for my well-being. Those words they told me, each and everyone, made me felt the concern i had surrounding me. Dropping the subject, for me, is becoming a more and more correct decision. At least, i knew how much they cared. (: I love the three of them.

Times like this i feel watery all over. I suspect the source of all my never ending tears, comes from all the water intake that didn't become pee. LOL.

Colours.

She's like the sun,

2012-01-09T20:20:00.003+08:00

Hmmmmm, got an A1 for Chinese O's. Still decided to drop HMT because there's no point taking since i'm heading towards Poly. Alot people telling me not to, but i still feel, it's really useless because the chances of me changing my mind to JC is almost zero. Grats to Shann, you did great. ♥

Another reason holding me back is just ongjingyiiiiiii. She's gonna be so sian in HCL class.

At least i have a 1 for my ELR2B2 now. Just concentrate English, and 3 other subjects and make them nice nice. (: Preferably, one maths, one humans, one science. Then i'm all set for my course.

Mastery tests packed the whole January up and it feels like exams againzxc. Except this time round, the results not counted, just to see if you studied during Hols, and whether remedials are necessary. For me like duh leh remedials. X: Sian.

On a lighter note, i'm happy for my seniors who got satisfactory results.

Motivation, yes it's present. But God knows how long it'll stay. Hopefully about 10 months.

My chest, rather heart aches are starting again. Time for check up but i really don't want to go. Waste of money, and time for an outcome almost expected.

"You're fine looking from all the x-ray and CTG scans. Remember to come back for check ups when scheduled, and avoid too strenuous and vigorous exercises or activities especially when the heart pains occur. Other than that, everything should be acceptable."

And there goes several hundred bucks. And few hours.

Mangoes. Huge crave for mango juice. D:

Survivor,

2012-01-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

I survived the first week at school. It took me long to get used to the school feel. Ohwell, right now things suck because i learnt that the man of my life is getting married. Although it's virtual. It still hurts. Ugh, and of all actresses why her? Isn't she Minho's or something. Darn, the show better convince me to be a fan of them if not i'll be so fucking pissed at a marriage i think is really really wrong. WHY WHY WHY! Why Donghae? Why cannot other member. ): Sigh sigh sigh. Still, being able to see how he's treating his wife, is the only good point i guess? UGH I'M STILL FEELING SOUR. VERY. EXTREMELY SOUR. And no it's not grapes but lemons. Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

Oh and Jiejie got me a I♥SHINee tee from BKK and helloads of panties. LOL. After saying panties makes good gifts, she's been popping out undergarments on my pile of clothes for me. Zomg i really love the tee. And i know i'm saying this too often, but i really need to clear my clothes. There's too much new ones.

I'm hungry and there's no food.
I'm tired and there's cca open house tomorrow.
I'm lazy and i have to bathe.
I'm jealous and he's still getting married i guess.
I'm sad and he's still getting married.
I'm very disappointed, yet my man's going to be 'officially' other's man.

Lalalala, i'm fine now. :) Heehee. I know i owe birthday posts for people but i've mentioned i won't be doing anymore this year unless i feel like. But still, belated cheerful birthday Sungmin!

And I love Donghae still.

We're writing history,

2012-01-01T19:57:00.006+08:00

And life's made up of small victories. :)

Anyway, whoohoo it's the legendary 2012 year. LOL. Okay right now i'm feeling like a dream, so probably when my 'dream' is awakened by someone/something, most probably homework, i'll be back to .__.

Hehe, like i've said, it's a whole new year with my resolutions.

Last year resolutions:

Studyyyyyy like i've never did before and pass everything! I'm really contented to be able to pass everything. Especially maths and sciences
Get into Syf'10. Scared. D:
Able to go Shinee's concert.
Visit my Godma more often.
Save more monehhh and don't anyhow buy things.
Procrastinate lesser. (Dam hard.)
Smile like i mean it every single day!

- http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/01/annyeong-2011.html

Well, it wasn't all that fail since number 2, 3 and well i think 7 were success. (: Hehe.

This year, hmmmm.

Do my best for "O's" and maintain my happy self.
Think carefully about what i really want for myself in the future.
Remain close with my friends.
Try to be a nicer person.
Lose, freaking, weight.

Yeah that's all. I just want to enjoy my last year, while making it worthwhile. True enough, it's a brand new chapter in the story of life, MY life, and i'm not going to regret any single shit when this year ends.

Had a pretty awesome night counting down, with the usuals for the past few years. But, this year, it was better because the fireworks were more than just magnificent in my eyes, for a moment when the last few fireworks blasted in the night sky, the smile on my face was probably the widest, and one of the most genuine one i've had in a long while. The thought of facing something i call 'tough and dreadful' wasn't that awful anymore. There's so many fucking beautiful things in the world i've yet to see, and of course the true definition of tough and dreadful i've yet to experience, which i don't want to. LOL, yeah, so my life is so much better than alot out there. Whee. (: Imma happy girl, in ma happy world~

Happiest, new, year, ziyann. Annyeong, 2012! ♥

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(Edited)

Happy fifteen Hui En! :) Have a splendid year ahead with me. Hee.

Letter Challenge Day 1

2011-12-30T19:11:00.001+08:00

Day 1 - Your crush.

Hmmmmmmmmmm, i don't have one.

So i've decided to change it into my future crush.

Hello. :) I don't know who will you be, but really, please be someone nice. LOL. Okay erm, i've never been the one admitting my liking for the opposite party, because girls should NEVER be the one initiating anything. I think it makes her lose out in the r/s in the future if there is any, because the guy won't cherish her as much. So if you just happen to feel or think that i'm liking you, please don't ask me anything. Because all my answers will be no. Hell no i'm going to admit i like you. Because crushes never last for me. I know myself too well, and i can never, ever ever ever like someone for a long period of time.

The over 3 month crush = love theory don't really apply to me much because apparently love should be like omg effing hurting, jealousy flying everywhere and shitszxc, but no i don't feel that way at all when my crushes exceed 3 month.

So yeah, Mr Crush, don't appear in my life too soon because i want to have fun next year while studying. Appear after November or something. Hehe. See ya then. ♥

Summation.

2011-12-29T19:19:00.003+08:00

Super Show 3 Singapore.

It was definitely the very day i learnt the importance of them inside myself that i never knew existed. I saw the 10 guys i never thought i would. I heard them sing live, i saw how they treat their fans with my eyes, and felt the passion and love they had for ELF in their performances. Most of all, i found courage in his eyes.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/01/super-show-3.html

TVXQ duo's comeback.

They improved, definitely. Compared to when i first knew them as five but did not show interest in them, the two absolutely showed they were capable of bringing back the glory that once belong to the group. And i've said, Before you go had the luxury of a MV that SM rarely would spend on. KYHD's a album filled with songs that, expressed their everything. Including the emptiness they must have felt. Well, my opinion.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/before-you-go.html

You're fifteen.

Yup, i grew older. Hehe. And this year had got to be the year i received the most presents, even from unexpected people. The mini celebration i had with, Cards or handmade stuffs always meant the most. I grew older with Siwon, the guy that shared my birthday, but he's about nine years older haha, i've yet to find someone that share my birthday at my same age. Hope to find one soon.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/04/im-fifteen.html

SYF, 2011.

Gold was definitely a disappointment for most of us. Cried alot, especially seeing how they tried to be strong for us. What can i say? I love my seniors.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/04/as-promised.html

F(x)'s first full album comeback.

Their hit songs, Danger, then Hot summer during their repackaged, were one of the best songs i've heard from them. Still remembered they released hot summer before i went BKK in June then the whole time in BKK, me and my brother were singing it.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/04/im-in-danger.html

Eclat' 2011.

It was the last performance with the seniors, and i can recall how many hours we spent rehearsing and at the backstage stairs. But the last moment after we all performed, i've got to admit, it felt great. We had one of the longest performances among all the PA groups, so it felt nervous but really great at the same time. One of the best times i have had for a performance. I missed feeling love for choir. Now it's all abhorrence left and i really can't help myself. But i won't skip any next year until the concert's over i guess. That's a promise to Nic i've made silently.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/06/so-goodbye-dont-cry-and-smile.html

Bangkok, 2011; 2PM's comeback.

Thank god i went in June, cos apparently december was plagued with weird weathers and bombs. LOL. Okay, anyway, if you look back at the pictures then of my clothes, it's twice more messy cos i have twice more clothes than then, after putting the clothes i've bought in BKK in and now KL's and some my sister gave when she moved out.

2pm's comeback with Hands Up was cute, but honestly the craze went off too quickly. I don't have a deep impression on the song and dance, so i guess afterall, it wasn't a successful comeback as compared to Beast's Fiction, F(x)'s Pinocchio, Infinite's Be Mine, Tara's Roly Poly. I don't personally feel that i need to compare them with 2NE1's comeback with Lonely and IATB, Big Bang's Tonight and many others. Despite the consecutive wins they received for the song, i still think it wasn't that all sensational yet. TVXQ's, SJ's, SNSD's, still take the top few positions for the comebacks of the year along with Big Bang and Beast's for me.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/06/put-your-hands-up-d.html

DBSK, 5 forever.

Officially in June, i believe i'm a fan of the top group in Asia. It took me more than 2 years to got into them just by a video of minutes. When Mirotic was out with Nobody, taking over the whole asia, that's when i started to notice this genre of music. Instead, i placed my attention on the sensational largest boy group in the world then, SJ full with 13. Which after that, Sorry Sorry era lifted the group status in Asia, with SNSD's Gee. That time, who knew the best would separate into two.. Still, they're now both achieving success and i absolutely adore sub groups now. Then came SJ's many many events, from 13 decreasing to 10, with me crying for people i've never met.

Those were the times the top notch groups had problems and difficulties and the sea of blue and red merged to became the best friends in the Kpop industry. Both groups understood each other with similar difficulties. Probably that's why somehow DBSK filled my life with SJ too now.

SHINee remained strong, and i'm thankful. It brings me hope seeing a group intact still. 2pm's Jay's termination didn't hurt me much but as i grew to know that group more and more, I feel, with Jay's presence, that group had much more to show.

Seems like fate still made me a cassie, and i'm definitely loving it.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/07/nothing-struck-me-faster.html

HP7 part 2, last of the trio.

I'm just glad i got to watch it with Shan and others. It's definitely a series i'll always love. Emma Watson has been someone i want to be like after watching the first few movies, and she is, the person i think i'll choose as a ideal type if i'm a guy, or bi. LOL. Perks of being a wallflower, with another guy i love since Percy Jackson aired, I guess it's going to be on my must-watch movie. The two fits each other in terms of looks, and acting.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/07/it-all-ends-here.html

Not so simple comeback, SJ's 5th.

It was perfect to me, with their repackaged being the most worthy with Andante and Oops. Words are hard to find to describe knowing it's their last album. Hmmmm, well. I guess i shed the most tears for this group. Omg. LOL.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/07/most-anticipated-comeback-of-year.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/08/mr-simple_04.html

SHINee World Singapore, 2011.

It was one of the most memorable day of my fifteen short years of life, with SS3. I love those guys so much, and watching + buying the tickets with Shan, the processes made it hell more worth it. Sharing the memory with Cheryl was a bonus. ♥

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/07/cause-youre-still-in-my-room.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/09/shinee-world-concert-sg.html

Heechul's army enlistment, from ten to nine.

I cried again for the group, and i think i had depression for some days. I could just sit down and tears just start rolling down out of nowhere especially if i'm alone. LOL, anyway, i'm glad during my nobody-could-probably-understand-why-the-f-am-i-upset-over-such-stuffs time, i had Shan, Mel, and Jayi understanding me and cheering me.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/08/your-place-is-here.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/08/plain-depressed.html

Eventful month, birthdays and got-togethers.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/08/with-these-anticipations-i-cant.html

Khuntoria's end.

Shedded tears more than Yongseo's. It hit me hard, real hard, about the level of heechul's leaving. This couple were the reason why i started WGM, when they left, i figured there's no reason why i should watch anymore. But now, Leeteuk and Sora's the reason.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/09/you-can-cry-now.html

Man of my life, 25th.

One of my longest posts in my blogging history. LOL, this man got to feel honoured. :P He made a huge difference in my life, especially when i first saw him irl, earlier this year, in SS3.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/10/i-love-you.html

SNSD's comeback, 3rd full album.

Along with their US debut, this album has got to be one of the best this year like i've mentioned. I liked the song, and The Boys was one of the albums filled with happier songs. They claimed six wins consecutively after SJ's five and rounded up October with them hitting headlines everywhere with SMTOWN's concerts as well.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/10/girls-bring-boys-out.html

Wondergirls' long awaited korean return.

Clash of the top girl groups. Snsd took victory on music shows and albums sales. However, the quality of their music, their album, i feel that Wondergirls won a little. Their hit song wasn't that all-wow but other songs on the album displayed their vocals. Very much.

With me indulging in Ukiss and Infinite at the same time, i realised how much i've missed out without UKiss in my life.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/11/somebody-take-me-away.html

SJ's sixth anniversary, start of SS4 world tour.

It had been asia tours 1 to 3, and finally they debark on their journey to other parts of the world. They've been enjoying much popularity outside Korea and it's something other groups have yet to be comparable to.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/11/six-years.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/11/no-more-words-to-explain-this-love.html

Ending the year with my short getaway trip from SG's pace.

Shopping cheers me up more than eating pepero and it's even all better when there's someone paying for your expenses. Lol, i love ya mama. :)

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/12/tokyo-london-new-york-paris.html

Yeah, summary of the year done.

It's been a fruitful and eventful year, i'll say. Knowing new friends, made my life so much better in a way that i know that there's more than just few people that cares for my well-being. I've got myself loving more people in this way as well. This year, i failed many subjects many times. I've worked for what i wanted and whether the result was satisfactory, i'm still glad through everything, i had people by my side with me. It gives me warmth.

I became happier in a sense that i'm more cheerful and i know how much each and every person treat me, valued me.

It's definitely a year i won't forget, for i've met SJ and SHINee.

Regrets occurred through the year as well, but right now what's filling my mind is all the happy things.

All in all, i've decided to be someone that chose being happy over anything else. I don't want myself regretting if anything were to happen to me, which i hope ofc doesn't, and if till then i feel like i've not lived a happy life then what the hell am i alive for? Although there's alot i should do in order to live a better and happier life in the future, but come on who are we kidding? Alot people just had wealth enjoying their last few decades of their lives, with their adolescence and teenage years being really uneventful, and there's alot of stuffs that can only be enjoyed for when you're young. Like me. :P

So yeah, if i have to choose being someone that failed in studies then but for all the time i've idled around, i grew happier and in a sense, more mature, then hell yeah, i'm choosing to be someone without certs but optimism.

I love myself so much. LOL. Gotta go, it's dinnerrrrrrrrrrrrr time. Hehe.

I wanna hold you

2011-12-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

Rawr, lazy to post other pictures taken.

I miss Jingyi, random.

Anyway, the self edited version of letter challenge is up ^ and i'm going to start doing as soon as i have the mood and time.

EXO's going to take over the market soon. Sian. Why do i feel attracted to their teasers, but feel indignant for my loverlies, because they weren't promoted the same marketing way and they had to achieve each and every bit of attention when they debut by themselves. Not just referring to SJ, DBSK, SHINee anymore. But almost every group i have knowledge about. Sigh sigh. Still, i'm super looking forward to EXO because i think their logo's the best so far, and they have omg fucking young people inside that i can like them longer before they go to the most detesting army enlisting. Jino's still not out yet, i'm waiting for my Sungjong-lookalike. :P Tao really looks like Zhoumi. X: Kai's been the best for me so far out of the three. Can i emphasize how much i like their logo, i think whoever thought of it's a genius.

I miss everyone so much. Rawr. I have no more words to describe my mood now. It's too complicated.

I'll do a summary post of my blog posts this year, then hopefully start my first letter, then of course it's our new year resolutions and boom, it's a whole new doom-sy year for mehh. It's okay, i know i'm not alone. Hehe. Jiayou x3 ziyannnnnnnn!

Hope Shan gets well soon. :)

Eight years,

2011-12-26T20:15:00.003+08:00

I like eight. Because it comes after seven. (:

Not going to say much about this anniversary because words can't express how i feel.

Anyway, it's been busy attending parties, playing mahjong/texas poker/weird random fun games throughout christmas eve till christmas.

Wheehee Shan's returning soon, and i can't wait to talk to her. God and my handphone knows how much i missed her. LOL my notes. Now i think i have like 300 notes in my phone. D: A habit i've cultivated since Secondary one.

I need to clear clothes away. Anyone want clothes i've worn? LOL JK. Okay usually all my clothes are worn once or twice because i don't like wearing something i've worn before. But yeah recently, somehow clothes pop out somewhere or i just magically find clothes in the most messy cupboard ever and realised hey i can wear this, who gives a darn about who it belongs to. For the first time in my life, i realised maybe, MAYBE, i do have a little too much clothes. With 40% still not worn before because i don't know why. I am going to keep all my clothes to myself. :P:P:P:P I want to see if i can fill up a cupboard by myself when i buy a new cupboard for the room.

And i don't understand why people laugh when i think that panties are perfect gifts. I mean, it's soooooo useful, and not expensive for a gift. Were talking about presents we wish people give us, and everyone was like, listing some MI5 gifts, while i said useful stuffs, then they asked like what, i said panties, clothes, pen refills, facial masks, socks. LOL. They laughed at the first and the last. WTH? It's the most useful and creative gift because most people won't give those, so if people give, sure won't clash with others presents. Am i right or right?

I still find it ironic that in my house, 7 people live in my house - 4 room flat. And 2 people live in a 5 room flat, my bro's.

Whatever, i like my house more.

Tokyo London New York Paris

2011-12-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

Back from my malaysia trip. It was okay, travelling in car made up almost half the trip. It was about 6 days long in there, from SG to KL for shopping then KL to Ipoh to eat nice nice food + visit relatives, then Ipoh back to KL to visit relatives + meet my big bro and sis then KL to Johor for food before returning back to SG.

Took quite a few photos, with the DSLR my mum picked up. First time using such complex cammy. Still, i mastered it abit already haha.

It's 1.37 am now wts i took so long to upload the photos to photobucket then transfer to blogger. RAWR. Tomorrow still going to meet Jayi♥ to get my choir tee and photos and Australia's souvenir. Wrote her a card. Gosh still got Xmas eve party at Bro's house then Xmas + housewarming party at Uncle's new terrace house. Then countdown gathering, and Godma's birthday the day after countdown. ZOMG I LEFT LIKE DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH WORK NEVER TOUCH KNNNNNNNNNNN. FML. Ah i'm going to give up countdown this year i think. Chiong work ahhhhh.

Sian got ulcer. _|_

Anyway, shopping was very fail. Only managed to get 3 casual wears, 2 classic shirts, 2 top, 1 cardigan and 1 dress. WTF 9 only. Got 2 pairs of casual shoes, and 1 bag. Anyway KL's actually kinda good for shopping. Because i only walked 2 levels of one block of that effing huge mall of like 10 storeys with 2 blocks. It's like 3 Jurong Point add together. I miss Bangkok still. Things are cheaper there ofc, but if add the flight price then overall KL and BKK about the same since KL no need flight. Besides, there's alot of malls there.

Bangkok now got bombing going on so yeah KL safer. LOL. I won't mind shopping there from now onwards.

Completed another mainland drama. After watching NHZGG, i'm more interested in past dramas. As in the drama's era's in the past. LOL. Startling by each step's not bad, made me understood the fight between all the princes for the throne better. China's history really stuck in my mind after studying it in lower sec and primary school. All the dynasties and stuffs. Still in the middle of watching a new korean drama i started. Emotional and really complicated. Surprisingly it's like one of the very few dramas that has only 1 actor i like and still i watch all the way. Only at ep 11 now, still have like 40 episodes. Watched Donghae's and Siwon's Extravagant Challenge 1st episode. Really cute, i've watched the anime so.... kinda know everything and how things turn out already. Just watching to support the man. :P

Go malaysia but i still got watch news and drama and tumblr at night okay. :P

Photosssssssss. Not all uploaded. Only like half.

1st day:

Trying out the camera after reaching hotel at KL.

2nd day:

Hotel's lobby. Before going for breakfast and shopping until night. :)

MUMMY'S GUCCI SHADESSSSSSSSSSSS.

Outside the effing huge mall. See mummy's Gucci shades and Loewe bag! I want. ):

Day 3:

Before leaving for Ipoh in hotel, mummy's room.

Muahahaha i'm almost the same height as my bro. Okay fine i was wearing wedges, but without it i'm still near his height.

After reaching Ipoh, after bathing at midnight at Uncle's house. Tried on mummy's shades cos she left it at Uncle's house. She stayed at her sister's house, cos wanna talk but me and my bro stayed at her brother's house cos got cousins can talk. :)

Dinner with relatives at some restaurant.

On the car, listening to music on PSP. Freak man, i need to buy an ipod soon.

Shan, i know i owe you this. LOL not my fault the shop in BKK closed down and i can't find any shop that makes that. If i do find, i sure make one for you okkkk. :)

My favourite long necklace. Ribbon, star, heart, eiffel tower. Everything's there. (:

Told ya the sky in Msia's pretty.

The family photo that every family at my mother's side owns. It's like everyone's house i went have, except mine. Don't know what's wrong with my mum. SPOT ME!!!!

Okay i'm the youngest in this photo. It was like 15 years ago. And i'm the one my 2nd aunt's carrying. Mummy's in blue behind me, Papa's carrying my second brother. (: Wonder if that time i needed a passport to go malaysia. So small. I miss my grandparents. Okay i know i have some weird baby socks on. LOL.

Day 5:

Didn't take photos on the 4th day. At KL, Big bro and sis's resort? Called ASCORT or sth. Very big and expensive and nice la. HAHAHA the below photo my mum's eyes going to close cos of flash.

Leaving their hotel's apartment, with sis. I WANT DYE MY HAIR LA OMFG.

Okay self captured photos. I need to lose weight. Everyone says i'm fatter. _|_

Even though i went Msia, still took note of my usual stuffs. I think their SS4 song's really cute. Donghae's songs for supershows always sound great, and ALWAYS features Eunhyuk. I really wish his songs were part of the album. But then again, like that super show nothing surprising already hor.

I still think live performances sounds better and just, more natural than the studio ver below.

Cute fellas.

Honestly, he's amazing. Continuously live performances, although he didn't sing everything and there was backup, but it's really awesome. LOL. Been years since i heard Jing wu men. (:

I'm going to sleep omfg still need make tangyuan tmr morning then go out wts la my mum dam ass.

I need more shopping. So stressed now because of homework and many things i haven't complete.

Lovin' You

2011-12-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday leaderrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! :D

I don't know what to say but i love you so much. Your voice is probably the sweetest other than Donghae's lol to me. Anyway, thank god for bringing you into this world 22 years ago, and thank god for letting me such a you existed. (:

I'm anticipating your korean album so much. (: It'll definitely be a hit. Shinee's cover of last christmas sound so cute with Key's english. I love it. Hopefully we'll see more of you guys in the upcoming year.

Going KL tmr. So.... i can't wish happy birthday to Kim Junsu. (:

Xiah.

I like the name. (:

Anyway, happiest 25th and i really really hope you maintain your happy personality always. You know, i've always believe that none of you wanted things to turn out this way, and all of you used your ways to fight for TVXQ. Just different ways. All i want for christmas, like many many others, is for the group to be as one again. I keep my faith. (:

I love you. And your perfect voice.

I really need to do work soon gosh. X: Sighsighsigh.

Thank god i think i finished all the birthdays that matters this year. I think next year i won't do so many birthday posts anymore. I'll probably only do those that i want to or love to. (:

TO TO TO TO YOUR HEART♥

After being slightly depressed over the breaking up of Westlife, went back to English pop. Westlife♥, N sync, S club 7, Savage Garden♥, Usher, Taylor Swift, Celine Dion etc. Gosh those were the days when Kpop wasn't in my life. Filled with the 4 bands mentioned above. LEGENDARY TO ME. LOL.

Anyway the SNSD lightstick's really pretty. (: Shall show shan someday.

Seohyun♥

Taeyeon♥

Every step counts.

2011-12-09T11:49:00.001+08:00

Watched an evening movie with Jiayi today. :D As you can see, the list ^ there, is shorter and shorter, with two hardest tasks left. LOL. Actually the reading of book cannot be achieved because i haven't found a book that i want.

Anyway the film's great. In my opinion it's better than the first, and really cute. Dam Eric is so so so so so so adorable. The plot was relevant, and i liked the funny and innocent lines the baby penguins had. 4.5/5. Worth my eleven bucks. :) The songs were meaningful just like the first. And mambo's stepping feet was still relevant here. (Y)

Shopping accompanied by a great movie makes my day even though i'm broke. REALLY BROKE GOSH. Thank god and heavens i didn't go for anything that i REALLY EFFING WANT TO GO like Westlife's concert, SNSD's concert, TVXQ fanparty (DARN ADELINE CHIA). At least i have money for another more important concert lolololol. BUT I'M SO ANNOYED RIGHT NOW COS I AIN'T SEEING THE TOP GIRL GROUP IN ASIA AND THE PERSON GOING KEEPS ASKING ME DETAILS ABOUT CONCERTS. D: D:

Snsd. ):

SNSD. )':

I need a new wallet. Desperately. AND SHOES. AND BAG. AND OH FREAKING HEAVENS, BOOKS. LOL.

Jiayi and I was spazzing over One Direction just now when we were looking at albums. LOL, i think the one i like is Louis. OKAY I STILL CAN'T DIFFERENTIATE THEM AND THEIR COMPLICATED NAMES. Zayn's really good looking that if i'm a guy i'll turn gay for him.

Speaking about it, my mum seems to be a little worried that i'm homosexual. Because everytime i go out it's with girls and we had some talk with my oldest bro and sis about lesbians and i said i find nothing wrong with girls liking girls, or guys liking guys. I MEAN HELLO, It's their freedom and right to choose their sexual preference, and as long as people never like you can already right. She got agitated and said that it was something very wrong and she will never, and can never accept all these. Then i'm like, lol lesbians also never irritate you, why are you like this. She just keep insisting it's wrong.

I REALLY THINK IT'S OKAY.

That's why she finds me wrong as well i guess. LOL. The >< look she gave me everytime i say IT'S A GIRL. That i'm out with.

I think i need to display more than the alot photos i have already displayed of boy groups to show that i'm into guys. LOL. SJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJ. ♥

"Uncontrollable affections, impossible confessions."
- A sentence from my hard work, my story. It's one of the few lines i'm very satisfied with.

I miss shan so much, after meeting Jiayi today.

Leaving you with,

Happy birthday, the most good looking 20 year old i've ever seen. (:

Like i've said countless times, you're the one i've defined as hot ever since i saw RDD for the 1st time. You're very different, among your members. You're really really competitive, very confident, absolutely hot. You probably have the best abs i've seen other than Siwon's. I really think your friendship with Jonghyun is the most funny because you two have really different strengths. He's short, you're tall. He's the main vocal, you're the main rapper. He's playful, you're serious. I think that's what makes you guys blend better. (:

Seeing you in person was amazing, and really really captivating.

It's your leader's birthday in a few more days. I love december, with one of the reasons being your birthday. :D

Happiest 20th in your healthy and shining life, Choi MinHo.

YES IT'S MINHO'S BIRTHDAY. :)

The first's really awesome. It's their first Jap full length studio album and i really adore the following songs.

Better. (My favourite song out of the album.)
To your heart.
Hello Jap ver.

SHINee world Jap ver's so cute. "Twinkling is Jonghyun." LOL THE RAP (Y)

It's going to be 2am lol idk how slow i've been dwelling on this post. Keep getting distracted by other stuffs.

Lovin' my holidays so far. ♥ When Jayi's back from Austy i'll be going to KL. Grrrrr sucky.

Shinee Day 30.

2011-12-06T17:44:00.004+08:00

Gosh, Sine curves are killing me cos i totally forgot how to draw. I'm frustrated no matter what i do now. And the backache is really killing me. ): Thank god Jayi's talking to me from Austy. AUSTRALIA I'LL VISIT YOU ONE DAY.

I'll skip all the dedications. From day 25-29. I've slightly done them in birthday posts, and absolutely in many posts i've mentioned about them.

Lastly, Day 30 - Why you love SHINee.

Hmmmm, I think i've said this like don't know how many times, why i love them, each and every one of them. They're a contemporary dance group that has the potential, in my eyes, to be the next leading kpop male group, that is IF they're promoting in Korea next year. These men can sing and dance live, which i deem a feat. Of course, they possess extraordinary looks, which is definitely a bonus, and a plus point - be it natural or done. They're talented, and capable of doing what they like well.

Loving them was never a mistake after being obsessed, nah not a nice word, after being captured by SJ. They have a different sense of love for each other, and their teamwork can be seen in many cases.

I love them for their songs, for their personality, for their looks, for their talents.

They're alluring in every sense.

Shining men. :D

White confession.

2011-12-06T14:56:00.002+08:00

Serious mindblock. Ah crap. I have no idea how to continue typing the chapter. It's been a week since i've updated. AHHHHHHHHHH SHIT THIS LA. Frustrating only.

And i'm having a serious backache i don't know why. Great day.

Happy song. (: Sungjong got alot more lines. ♥

Looking forward to SMTown's winter album. (: Shinee's covering Last Christmas i think. Everyone's releasing winter songs.

Except them. LOL, it's hot and sexy. MV's really good. (Y) Hyuna paired with Hyunseung is really unexpected for me, so this was surprising.

Another song that's been put on replay days ago. I like this band. Been long since any english band attracted me. Westlife's the first and only band since primary one? LOL idk, but they're the best. :D Regretted not attending their concert in SG before their disbandment. ):

Although Westlife's much better, they're still cute in their way. Music's more different. I like the rhythm.

You light up my world like nobody else.

You are the apple of my eye.

2011-12-05T00:34:00.004+08:00

You have no idea how hard was it to pass yesterday. Okay well it's 12.35 am now, so yeah it's yesterday. Darn the inner fight occurring between my heart and brain. Brain always remind the heart to wait. Wait. WAIT. W-A-I-T. -.- Waiting is the worst process ever invented on earth, under normal circumstances. UGH.

Well ended 'yesterday' and started 'today' kind of well. Downloaded the ahem, pirated? version of You are the apple of my eye, and watched the whole movie. I don't think it's that nice, i mean, i get it, like the whole teenage love, the pure liking the movie emphasized on. In the end she married someone, and he's wishing her all the best in her life. Is it supposed to be that touching? Because okay little leak of secret, i cry over touching movie/drama/shows scene so easily i hate myself for it. BUT NO I DID NOT SHED A TEAR FOR THIS MOVIE. And all the ahem butt naked scenes and errrrrrr, self-pleasuring scenes really, really, really are unnecessary. NC16 is a very good thing. LOL.

But still, worth watching and it helped in understanding guys' mindset better. I guess, during secondary/high school years, it's really the time you forge strong bonds with people that isn't related to you. And i absolutely agree with the movie that, remaining as good friends after a relationship/rejection is possible and workable and comfortable. Accept it well, welcome another well. (:

Anyway, the movie's overall a 7/10 for me. Kaiji was much better in my opinion. Lol.

I should really start doing some work. Since my story's not going to be completed anytime soon. Honestly, i'm really not ready for sec 4 right now. Maybe tomorrow, the day after, or just anytime in the future. Just not right now. I need, so much time. So much. It's not just mentally i guess? Physically i'm not ready as well. There's no way i'm returning school anytime during Dec. It's the month that concludes the year and there's so many things i want to do in order to make 2011 a great year. That reminded me, Shan, our tuition. LOL. If you're seeing this, we need to do something real soon.

Jayi's in Australia right now i guess. Nougats. Lol. And no, i'm not envious that she went to the country of my utmost want, because the reason i want to go is definitely not for holiday break. And i want to go there, without family. So no. :P Jingyi's probably in HK or GZ or sth i don't know lol, or going soon. Mel should be going Korea soon. I'm stuck with a pathetic neighbouring country. AH FML.

As usual, life's awesome.

I really really really really want to change the skin but god, it's so hard to find something i like. Can i have someone to custom make one for me. Darn.

More posts coming up, it's a month of many many many stuffs. Birthday posts, blogging ideas from my tumblr followers, Christmas wishes, anniversaries, lastly, our new year resolutions. (: We'll look back at my previous resolutions soon. :P See if got complete any.

Blogging ideas suggested:

Some letter challenge. 30-day letter or sth. Lol, edited the original version to something i like more. Let's say, a little, shorter.
Dedication to Donghae. LOL -.- No, i'm not doing this cos i did already. :P
Dedication to DBSK. Uhhhhhh, i'll consider that probably. But mostly no.
Talk about yourself. LOL isn't each post about myself. Something wrong with this suggestion, abit, cute.
Do SJ challenge. Hmmm, soon ba. (:

My followers are, cute. LOL. They reminded me about dedications. Yeah, dedications. Not going to tell you to who. HAHAHA.

Still deciding if i should reveal my list of TOP idk-how many-now, and the song rankings.

And yes, i'm definitely going to complete the shinee challenge. (: It's a bloggy month, ♥

The male lead is, quite cute. (: Seems to fit my ideal type. Conditions like .. err, ah nvm not going to say. :P

那些年，我们一起追的女孩。

(Edited)

Happy birthday Yuri! :D You'll always remain as the top for me, because you're amazing. :)

Happiest 22nd, god bless you. ♥

You're the apple of my eye. :P

Obsessive.

2011-12-01T19:48:00.003+08:00

Completed a full story whereby it's supposed to be NC17 lol. Dam, it's really preposterous for me to keep on reading until it ended. At many chapters and parts of the story when the author described the how the main character manipulated everything so, obsessively, really scares me. Sometimes, i don't understand why God made mental illness - to a extent whereby killing is a pleasure, existent. Isn't it better if that didn't exist. Like no humans should be psychotic under any circumstances. Well, i guess it's another no-answer question.

Still, it got me into psychology and little bit of socialogy. Researched about several disorders that the story introduced me to, and got quite abit of results from the researching. Productive. Honestly, horror and psychological fictional genre of stories really really don't suit me. Mainly because i tend to think more and more and more until the extent that i suspect every stranger on the street might possess some psychological problems and i should prepare myself to run. Idiotic, i know.

Points to take home:

Attraction can be fatal.
Obsession leads to destruction.
Powerplay can be deathly, when submissiveness vs dominance is no longer the aim.
Selling cookies door-to-door can lead to rape and eventually, death? Whatever, almost there.
Never trust a patient to visit the therapist alone.

Okay point 4 sounds lame, but seriously, after reading the story, THERE IS NO FREAKING WAY I'M GOING TO DO SOME JOB THAT REQUIRES ME TO KNOCK DOOR TO DOOR.

Come again thinking, i should not visit bookstores. LOL. It's actually the bookstore that he first met the woman and began his obsession.

This story honestly haunted me. Dam. I'm just surprised at the level of how sick the main character. I'll call myself someone who watched more just several hundred dramas since i knew television existed, and i've seen many thriller genre movies, be it american or mainland, and i'm definitely exposed to shows in general that has psychological problems being the main plot. Movies like Obsessed whereby i realised beyonce is really hot LOL, or Funny games which got me scared of people knocking on my door when i'm home alone, and honestly, all the visuals got me somehow afraid of something.

But nothing like what i've read, whereby it was pure words that affected me that much as well. I could really feel the fucking terror in me. I got really scared of clicking next chapter, afraid to know what's next. And darn, the author wrote it so well that the plot make sense literally with her emphasizing on the characters powerplay. I guess since she majored in psychology, it made it easier for her to think in the angle of a psychotic person and she didn't make the character bipolar. Usually these stories, okay among those i knew, have strong shadows of bipolar symptoms, and in the end, yep, they're bipolar to an extent.

Just found another author, but i wouldn't say i like her lol. I'll just admit that she wrote well but hell no i'm not reading her next story again.

I'm so proud that i had the courage to finished the story.

And right now, i have no idea wtf is wrong with my mother because obviously she's giving me shit again. -.-

Oh well, haters gonna hate. I have my incomplete story to do, dammmmmm. I love love love love sad stories, with happy endings. (: So you can imagine what my story's like.

Prince of the legend.

2011-11-28T16:51:00.003+08:00

Yep, rewatching it since idk 5 years ago? LOL. 81 episodes. (Y)

Anyway, gonna buy many snacks and stone at home from 4 pm onwards tomorrow to watch mama. (:

Wheehee. :D

Just one more time.

2011-11-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

Back from msia again. :) Saw a few cute guys lol, haiz why SG no have. ): Did my hair in Johor, cheap cheap. Next year dye go there, save money. :) Was chatting with my mum about stuffs while getting our hair done, and she was asking if next year march want go Bangkok. LIKE DUH OF COURSE LA. Then she said smth about february 19 pierce earhole or sth, i told her i feb 17 go watch concert.

M: "Who's?"

Z: "Don't tell you. :P"

M: "Another 200 dollars ah. Wah, you and korkor very dare to spend hor."

Z: "Aiya, once in a lifetime ma."

M: "Who's one? Shinee ah"

Z: "No la. You don't ask so much la, when the time comes you'll know. Sure will report on newspaper one."

M: "Like that go bangkok you pay for everything you buy. I pay air ticket and hotel only."

Z: "Eh walao. Don't like that."

M: "Then? You think i very rich ah."

Z: "Like that you have to give me money during holidays if not how i save money la until next year march."

M: "You don't help do anything still want money."

Z: "I'M A BUSY SG STUDENT."

M: "Everyday just use com, go out. Busy with all these lor."

Z: "Okay, O level one A 100 dollars. Wah shiok i get 5A got 500."

M: "One A $50."

Z: "EH WALAO."

M" What? Your handphone leh? Next year change no need money ah?"

Z: "Hello? Handphone is a must thing okay. Where can minus one."

M: "Then you ownself pay lor."

Z: "-.- You still don't get it. IF I HAVE MONEY WOULD I ASK YOU PAY HELLO?"

-Mummy diam.-

Another victorious win. :) It's a money spending year next year. Ipod, Concerts, clothes, trips. New handphone whoohoo finally can change to sth else. Any recommendations? Not that i dislike my cute phone, just that i want a change. Considering BB now. But i want android phones. X: Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Shan, help.

My brother is going to snsd concert w/o me. Wonderful ass. Oh wells, i have SS4 next year. Gonna go KL and Ipoh next month shopping. One week, shiok. Hope got things suit me. Bangkok bangkok bangkok. Sigh. Still pissed he's going to see nine gorgeous women and i'm stuck at home then. ): 10 dec anyone go out? LOL.

Anyway, it's been another relaxing week and tomorrow going town shopping again. I'm missing people so much. Watched a last minute movie with jayi. KAIJI♥♥♥ Anticipating 3rd sequel so much.

Downloaded Super Show 1 and 2 more tvxq concerts. Shan, concert-marathon ah. LOL not high quality but aiya hor. :P Completed alllllllllll my dramas on hand and the new episode of Ylbfb of Jay and Show is (Y) :D

Life's been awesome. Ohohohohoh, got a new bunny fan. Jayi's new bunny's called rainy. Okay maybe, MAYBE bunnies can be legal. Other than that all animals should be banned. It's the ONLY animal i don't have fears. At least i have many rabbit soft toys. So, since young it's a acceptable thing.

I wanted to change blogskin but no skins i like. Sigh.

No more words to explain this love.

2011-11-21T19:47:00.003+08:00

SUPER JUNIOR. :)

Somehow, i'm really glad, Singapore's small and have no cities or towns or states like other major countries. So when they come Singapore, it's just Singapore, Singapore. LOL.

Not Paris, France.

Not New York, USA.

Not Tokyo, Japan.

So thankful. :)

Okay not the point, i've been surpressing the urge to post about it. So yeah, take some time to understand a small of part why they're men of my life. And that why money was never the issue when it comes to them.

Cr. alsvmfls.

Dam, He's not just the best leader, but the best husband so far on WGM i swear. This really puts Nichkhun's events and Alex's washing of feet lol, and Yonghwa's song, to the very side. He's the man. The best proposal, no the earliest proposal so far i guess. Only 6 eps out and he's already proposing. ON HIS CONCERT. DURING HIS SOLO. INFRONT OF MORE THAN 20000 FANS. No husband, no, no man in the industry have ever done that, seriously. My second bias of SJ, congratulations, you've just made me love you more. :)

No more words to explain this as well.

Shann, don't you want to watch this live with me! X:

Hae's mistakes are really adorable. They did the boys dance move and Eunhyuk can't bend well LOL. CUTE LIKE NOTHING LA. Officially the best nursury rhyme in my life now. :)

ME A NAME I CALL MYSELF! :D

This is not surprising. Because they're Super Junior. :)

One of my favourite colour. :)

The only thing that's affecting me right now. Is the huge possibility of Leeteuk not coming to SS4 SG. X: And honestly, that made me sobbed the whole day yesterday after he said he's leaving after SS4 Japan. God, can't i just see the best leader of all times once more. ):

He's perfect. As a man. As a leader. As a singer. As a husband. As a person that changed many lives. :)

February 17 next year. Will it be our second meeting? X: :D

Somebody take me away.

2011-11-18T15:01:00.005+08:00

Something that's totally taken me. Gosh, my life. I've been having too many people that attracts me recently.

1. Wondergirls.

2. Ukiss.

3. Infinite.

4. Selena and Justin's r/s.

5. Australia

Of course i've liked some of them before recently la. Just that these days, it's really overwhelming. I know Australia's not a person. Just, ugh you geddit.

I'll trade nothing for all my relaxation these days, for all my catching up on everything i never regretted knowing, and it's pretty contradicting how pissed i can get over natural disasters ruining my main goal in a year-end holiday, yet be thankful that it's not occuring here, right now, and i still get to enjoy everything in a way i didn't meant for. It's like, how God has arranged things to replace one thing or another. Still overwhelming. :)

SHANNNN, I know you'll see this somehow someday. Can we add another stop to the travelling? I've officially decided on my own that it's gonna be Australia instead of Canada being the place i wished my second part of my life is related, deeply i hope lol, to. You can still stick to Canada or any country or state you prefer. I'll be willing to go. :) As to why of this sudden change of preference, rather, decision now, is a myth for you forever. Rawrrr.

I'll include their song as the one of the top songs i've discovered/known/produced this year. It's been a huge headache trying to classify them into rankings, and though i wished the list would be a surprising one, i guess it's easier to infer from all my hints for the past ten months or so, that who had made me fall deeper in music, something that i believed made this world of mine at its very best. :)

As to why i've been falling deeper for Selena, is mainly due to her, of course a little bit of Justin, and Ellen. :)

Dam i love Ellen.

Lala, it's still overwhelming.

Super Show 4 World Tour's commencing soon. May everything go well for the men of my life, and hope each and every fan realises that it was never meant to be a war between family. Hope you get it.

Also, continuing my random confessions of what i like,

#2. I really have something for guys wearing long sleeves. Especially if it's a little messed/oversized.

#3. Black is still a colour that impacts my life. :)

I miss having the discipline to do things i know i have to. But on contrary, i liked having the freedom to decide what i like to do. In the end, it's all up to me right? Whether it's happiness or right, i believe, i'll take the former anyday. :) Afterall, when there's no wrong, there's no right. Instead of always completing what everyone says it's a supposed-to, i'll oppose with what i feel is best suited me and my mood. I know it'll end up not much good accomplishment in my life near or far ahead, but i'll keep the belief i've always held that it's never bad to allow yourself to indulge in the happiness in what this world has, which is slowly decreasing as the pace increases.

I'm totally willing to embrace the bad consequences that everyone defined it as.

SHAN I MISS YOU. ♥

Been long since i've updated so satisfying. :P I feel like writing changed me. :) I think in different angles now. Found someone i really admire online now. Through her words and description of characters and her just, plain perfect plot, i can visualise something happening right before my eyes. And it's a breathtaking feeling. Something apart from listening to live performances by them, and them, actually captures me the same way. STILL OVERWHELMING. LALALALA.

I'll post as frequent as i can in this mood. :)

Be mine, will you? :P

Ideal.

2011-11-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

I like how he waved then.

I like guys that smile showing teeth.

Missed many feelings. ):

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Gosh i'm anticipating already. :):):) Although there's no more ultimate girl group bias, still, there's people i really want to watch on the show. Sunny duhhhhh, BORA♥, AMBER♥,Jiyoung!

Hope others make me (: as well. Can't wait. :D

Some girl:"My friend's name is Bin ____ ( I forgot, just some korean girl name. )

Host:"There's a surname with Bin?"

Boom:"Bin Laden."

-EVERYONE LAUGHS!#@#$@!#%-

Boom = (Y). LOL, i can still laugh thinking about it. Gosh, tummy hurt so much laughing then.

It's been at least a month since this joke's in my head. LOL. Epic. Typical Boom kinda stuffs. Random and influential.

Bangkok flight cancelled. ): Mummy says the flood's too serious. SIAN AHHHHHHHHHHH. My shopping is transferred to KL i guess. It's expensive compared to BK, but no choice. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Fml. And the natural disasters occuring these days. Can't we end the year with a happy note. Gosh.

I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

Downloaded SNSD JAP TOUR and SMTOWN 08 LIVE IN BANGKOK. :) Kinda okay quality, both sound and visual. :) WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Soyu♥SungGyu. Me likey. :):)

Bright like a star.

2011-11-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

Lalala, list of things i want to do in the holidays. Things i want complete, hopefully. Is uppppp ^ there.

I completed number four already. :)

O's on thursday. Sian sian sian sian sian max. I miss my friends. AH screw this feeling.

I know i haven't finish my 30 days shinee challenge lol.

Wheehehe. The First's song list's outttttttttttt. Hope there's many many many many many nice songs. :) Listening to too much japanese songs these days. Addictive. :) ESP WITH RAPS. (Y) Wheehehe, there's AMIGO.

Happy for the past few days, just staying home doing my stuffs as usual, going out to chill with friends. Just missing my school friends. ):

Completed 4 more HK dramas. How more proud can i get of myself. :P :P

Tavia♥Raymond♥

I'm sorta not broke. :) Gonna go ikea soon. Mummy still owe me money. Whee. Can't wait for the room. :):)

K gonna go search about blogging ideas. :) Life's been awesome, except o's and missing them. X:

Six years.

2011-11-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

Above picture speaks it all. :) It's been six years.

People came, some left, some stayed.

From 13 to 8, yet still standing strong.

You make me proud, the family i found. And stayed by. :)

Happy sixth year. God bless you, to infinity and beyond. ♥

Seeing Bigbang fine as five now, gives hope. :)

It'll all be alright in the end.

Tone

2011-10-31T21:44:00.002+08:00

Feeling so sian now, because of

My story is so crappy done. And losing subscribers because i don't update often is making me feel exactly like how i lost followers on Tumblr. But i'll get over it like nothing cos i don't care about followers now. So probably sooner or later, subscribers don't matter too. :P
I'm feeling nauseous. Hope i'm pregnant or sth. -.-
SNSD 2nd concert, i still decided not to go.
TVXQ fan parrrrrrrteeeeehhhhh. Should be a no bah~ I need $.
No one updated their stories today so i have nothing to read.
I miss sleeping enough.
I don't understand lessons.

Lala, okay actually only the 1st 4 reasons are main.

Welllllll, its novemberrrrrr and minho's page. :) WHOOHOO.

I'm still upset over not seeing Yuri Tiffany Yoona Sunny Taeyeon Seohyun Hyoyeon Sooyoung and JESSICA. ): HOW CAN I JUST MISS THIS CHANCE OMFGGGGGGGGGGG.

SMTOWN COME NOW. PLEASEEE. LEMME SEE ALL. ):

Fml, and i love krystal. Happy belated birthday, the person i once wished to meet the most, and still does.

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/day-eight.html

Shortest relaxing trip.

2011-10-23T21:11:00.002+08:00

Well, in the end, i still went Malaysia. It's probably the shortest trip ever, only a day long, but it was the most relaxing time i have had ever the shittyyyyyyy year started. I see why mummy goes in Msia so often these days, like once per month or sth.

The sea is, beautiful. The sky is, larger. The pace is, slower. The mood is, happier. All in all, i get to be myself in there. A girl, looking at the sea alone, Okay fine my family is eating/talking in the restarant still, when i went out to watch the scenery. I find it cool that the restaurant is built above sea on a beach. When we went there, it was still low tide, meaning all the sand can be seen and there's so many mudskippers around. When we left, it was high tide and none of the sand can be seen. :) The water's just below us makes it cool to me. :P Back to my point, in there, i get to be a girl, looking at the sea, the sky, wondering about just, anything you can imagine. Feeling hope. Feeling, relaxed. Not a student, who just finished her exams, facing another school year coming up with major exams.

Regretted so much for not bringing my DSLR to snap few shots of the place. It's a scene that can't be seen in SG. The sky seems so large there, because SG has too many high-rise buildings. -.- I'll go there again and take photos, for sure. NOTE TO SELF. :P

Talked alot alot alot alot with my mum and siblings. Laughed like hell.

Went shopping and spam eating as well. Tired max when we came back to SG. =.= Slept on car. Received Shan's text and others, when reached SG and was :D :D :D :D :D :D :D Omg it's been ages i've seen her! I think we'll stick tgt for the whole day tmr trying to finish updating each other about our lives.

I just can't wait to see them all back.

Muahahaha mummy just gave me 50 bucks because my bro asked for 50bucks for ps3 gameeee so i have as well to be fair. SNSD CONCERTTTTTTTTTTTT. Yes or no? X:

I wanna love you.

2011-10-21T00:44:00.002+08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEE IT'S BEEN A RELAXING WEEK AFTER MONDAY. :) :) So happy and rejuvenated now. I feel like a new student. :)

Completed FO both seasons. :) :) Laugh until stomachache plus cry.

Shan if you see this, i'm liking TOP more and more muahahaha, but no worry eh, still SeungRi. :) GD second but going to be replaced by TOP. SHITSZXC. LOL.

I miss you so much.

愛してるよ.

Girls bring the boys out.

2011-10-19T11:07:00.002+08:00

What Tiffany sang before it was even released made sense now.. :)

ANYWAYS. It's a awesome song and i really like the english version. Seohyun's, Sunny's, Taeyeon's and Yoona's part are the parts i loveeeeee. :) Jessica sound really good, i admit. The part when they go higher and higher is super cool. (Y) (Y) Yuri only gets two rap lines, so yeah that's one point i don't really like. I shall emphasize on how much i love yoona's part lol.

It's impactful. Hmmmm, it's probably the 1st time i like their clothes in a mv. They look really good here.

Another new song that shows how girls changed into women in korea. :)

Not that i bias SNSD or wad, i like secret too. Just that, Their vocals is obviously weaker compared to SNSD if we compare the two songs. Theirs is not as impactful and catchy. TO ME. So if i was them i probably won't want to release my song same time as SNSD. Hmmm. D:

Well, the clash of the best girl group, and popular new girl group, isn't that nice anymore because, it's pretty obvious who will win. From the start.

GIRLS BRING THE BOYS OUT.

Death.

2011-10-17T22:12:00.002+08:00

Been a rough start of the week. Missed Jayi so much. Shan, if you see this. I'M. REALLY. ANGRY. AT. YOU. FOR. GOING. TO. A. PLACE. SO. FAR. ):

I think the girl's incident, shows human nature. You ran her down, ran her over, and just left. That's not it. People saw and just left the girl there. Another lorry ran her over again. I'm, disgusted. I think the parents' hearts hurt the most seeing the whole incident replayed again and again. Hope she survives well.. i hope, wish and pray that she does.. /:

If you haven't seen this clip running over the net, or on the news or on newspapers, i suggest you take some time to be mentally prepared, for a scene that depicts, how selfish we, specifically in this case, C-people are. I'm plain disgusted, and if for any reason that all these people have, _|_ you. I'm no kind person, but looking at this, no matter what reason, no matter how valid it is, if there's a child, lying on a road full of vehicles, there will, should, must, be a thing that you can do to help. IT'S NOT EVEN BECAUSE ITS THE RIGHT THING. IT'S JUST A NATURAL HUMAN INSTINCT ISN'T IT. Therefore, in my point of view, whatever reasons there is, my conclusion is, you're inhumane.

I love you.

2011-10-15T15:56:00.003+08:00

Hey there, happy birthday! You're 25. Hmmm, stay healthy always, and always. Stay happy, never stop smiling. Stay strong, never cry. I don't even know what to say first lol.

Erm, okay. It's amazing how i just liked you since about 28 months ago, dear. You're on TV, along with ALL other 12 members, and i just saw you like that out of the whole group. I admit it was because you were cute and funny on the show, shooting of Sorry sorry mv. But i have no idea who are you and which is you in the mv because omg, there's too many people and you all looked almost the same to me LOL.

I wouldn't say it was SJ that brought me into Kpop. It was actually DBSK and Wondergirls lol. But i've never really paid attention to them. So, i was into it before i knew such a you existed. But it was because of you, that i loved Kpop and because of you, i came to know, how amazing this group of 13 boys is, and mainly because of you, i know such strong fandom existed.

So, i've never really known who you are until i listened to SS mv and really liked the "Hey girl girl girl girl ... " part, and watched It's you after it was out, and liked you in the mv alot. I was like, yeah i should check him out. So it turned out, the part i like was sang by the same person in It's you too. Coincidence? Or fate. LOL.

Then, i came across the EXACT same clip i watched on TV then, and realised you're the one that i liked from the start. Again, coincidence? LOL.

So, as time passes, i got to know alot more about you, and your group and your fans. I even have many things that represents you or your group, like your albums, posters and stuffs. I also had the opportunity to meet you, in your concert, earlier this year, with 9 other members. True enough, about 15 months ago, I was alot, alot into SHINee more than you, and your group. It even struck me that those 5 shining men replaced you. But it's not until you, yes you, looked into my eyes, smiled, and nodded at me, and gosh you even poured water on me, earlier this year, that i realised how much you, and your group meant to me, much more than i imagined.

It was also then, i realised you guys were irreplaceable.

So it's sort of like a first love kind of thing yeah? It's there forever.

So, right now this group of yours, and mine, is left with 8 active members. But that all don't matter, because i believe, it's possible for a 13 stage again. I don't know how long it'll take, but i promise now, i'll wait as long as it takes. No matter how much i changed, no matter where i am by then, i'll still be smiling for you, when the 13 stage happens.

You changed me alot actually. And i'm really thankful to know that such a you existed, thankful that God gave you the best members you could have, thankful that you remained strong throughout all the hard times. Being in such a different group from others right from the start, was not easy. Having a fandom that's not perfect, nor magnanimous to others, isn't easy as well. But you, along with 12 others know that this fandom loves you guys too much, and of course, a little over protective yeah.

For your birthday, i've bought another album to support you guys for GDA. Of course i really want you guys to win your last daesang for your last SJ studio album. Temporary of course, your leader promised you guys will be back. But in the event that what happened this year happens again, and it's not you guys winning, i also hope you realised that in at least your fans' hearts, having you guys in our lives, is already daesang. :)

Boy, you have a sweet soothing voice, awesome dancing skills, and most importantly a heart that touches others. You inspire me when i want to give up many times, remembering your smile and nod helped me through countless times.

I won't deny right now, there's other people in your industry that i love very much, and it's not just one or two, but many. I also won't deny that your group is not the group that sings best. It's also not the best dance group. It's also not a young group, it's also not a perfect group. But despite this all, it's the one and only group that is able to change me, so much.

All in all, i love you, and your group birthday boy.

Happiest 25th Lee Dong Hae, of Super Junior.

Your father knew you would become someone he knew would be amazing. :)

Stay strong, forever.

LOVE YAAAAAAA. :) :)

More than the air i breathe..

2011-10-14T15:35:00.002+08:00

Edited many many photos took this year, during this 5-day break. :) Printing of them will take place soon. Above example not bad eh? :P Took Shan's photo to edit. Made the color more contrasting and added meaningful words to myself. :) Going to take some course on videos software next year after 'O's to learn make videos well. OMG I'M SO INTO ALL THE COMPUTER STUFFS. Tempted to write own stories with idols, tempted to make nice nice videos. I'm a youtuber. :P

WHEEHEE MNET MAMA HELD IN SG! Does that mean i can see ALLLLLLLLLLLL the people. LOLOLOL. Kkkk spazz.

Been slow in my production of story. Only second chapter because. AHEM. Yesterday i woke and spent 3 hours typing, editing, and just, brushing up that chapter so that it all make sense with the dates before DBSK became two groups, AND THE HELL AFF WEBSITE JUST MADE IT DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR. -.- Was sooooooooooooo pissed and just you know, ALL YOUR HARD WORK JUST GONE. Should have just written my story on Tumblr. But my followers not all DBSK's fan, so bo bian ahhhhhhhh. But okay whatever, i still RETYPED A WHOLE CHAPTER, and continued all the way till night. I'm spending so much time on it. Gained 3 more subscribers. :P Muahahah.

Now i feel the tiredness in all the books authors, writers, whatever their called, spent on writing. OMG ITS SO TIRING. D: But you feel good eh, when people read it. :P

SS4 Feb next year issit? D: D: :D :D Mixed feelings. Oh wells.

Okay gonna update my life. I've been just eating, listening to many many many more music, new and old songs, sleeping at least 12 hours a day and just relaxing. :) Great life. Really great. Completed most shows on hand, and i realised i have 5 SJ posters. D: 2 mega huge, one huge, two teenage sized. Great.

Now i own 2 5jib. :P I've tried my best for GDA alr. Oh wells, read allllll my letters/cards/notes from people again last night. Happy happy now. Should i take a picture of my collection with my DSLRRRRRR? :P Okay i will soon.

Took out my JB's My world 2.0 given by my brother last last year? IDK LOL. Listened to all the songs on the album again. (Y) Opened my unopened FEARLESS PLATINUM edition, and listened too. (YY)

I'm not going school next week i guess. Mummy say if i want can go malaysia with her. Hmmm, shall think it over abit more. SHOULD I? SHOULD I NOT?

Life's never been as great. :) Lastly, I LOVE SJ, SHINee, SNSD, DBSK, F(x), 2PM, B2ST, MISS A, SISTAR, KARA, CN BLUE, BIG BANG, MBLAQ, and of course my newest (Y) BOYFRIEND. :) Yeah they're THIS BIT more loved than INFINITE. Heh, i'm sorry melly. :P

Shan go go go go go watch them ok! You'll like them more one sure! :) I'm determined to make you love them lolol.

P/S: F.T island and Secret also. HEH. Paiseh ah too manyyyyyy. And my once obsession, JAYPARK. :P

Okay byebye.

Chukahaeyo!

2011-10-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

28th september,

Happy birthday Shindong! Stay healthy, happy, get married nowwwwwww~ :D People often treat you as a comedian, forgetting you're actually part of the once largest boy group in asia, SJ. And somehow, your appearance don't match with other members in SJ. But that all don't matter at all. Those people have no idea, how hard you work to choreograph each and every SJ song with other choreographers. And without you, SJ won't be SJ anymore. You're someone that breaks the stereotype of must having looks for an idol, and someone that makes SJ uniquely different from other groups. :) Love your funny dances and jokes. :)

11th october,

Happy birthday the youngest of super junior 13 + 2! :) Well when i saw your performance at SS3 earlier this year, i was totally fascinated. HOW CAN SOMEONE PLAY BABY ON THE PIANO LIKE YOU DO AND DANCE TO IT SO CUTELY. D: Haha, okay your solo stage's still stuck in my head, cos i think, it's really good. Well you're still very young and, i just want you to remain healthy and happy and continue composing amazing songs with Leeteuk. :) Best violinist, saranghaeyo henry.~ :D

Whee okay two more days left to the man of my lifeeeeee's birthday. :):):):):):) IMMA HAPPY GIRL, IN A HAPPY WORLD~~~ :D

Started writing.

2011-10-12T18:08:00.003+08:00

Yeapppp, i started on my own story writing. :) Told myself i'll do it after exams and completed a chapter already! :)

AHHHHH okay exams ended yesterday! I know i'll won't do well, but who cares, i did my best already. Bought 5jib version B yesterday as well. So yesterday's a great great day. But i'm broke.

SNSD's coming! :D :D I wanna watch but really no money and i really really really don't think it's possible to get tickets. Oh well. But i want to. X:

Okay, it's abit messy cos i'm just typing whatever came to my mind. I know i promised birthday posts, but i do them later yeah, now i'm all concentrated on writing. Probably tomorrow. Donghae's will be on the day itself. He's performing Dreams come true with seohyun on his birthday? So sian, have to work on his birthday. Oh wells, he'll have a great time i know.

Those belated ones will be done soon too. :)

I'm sort of relaxed now. :) :) Gonna start on my next chapter. Woohoo alot of views for my story and i gained subscribers even. :P

Gonna miss them so much. X: CAMBODIA ==

Annyeong, October! :)

2011-10-03T18:17:00.002+08:00

Well since i missed school today, i thought i could took out some time to update abit since i had plenty of rest.

HAHAHAH it's sort of a happy day because SHINee's japanese lucifer's out. And yuanshan told me super loads of funny stuffs that happened today. Well i think i'll find it hard to survive in school when they all go cambodia. I should start to be friendlier, since i'm mean and unfriendly most of the time lololol.

Basically i think the MV is really nice, i liked how alllllll they looked and sounded. No autotuning - well at least not that much. But as compared to Korean version, I still like the korean version more because i think the lyrics rhyme? more, rather its just more pleasing to the ears. While the Jap version focused on Taemin and Key mostly, I feel Minho looked gorgeous in it. :P :P HE WAS SO HANDSOME FOR THE DREAM CONCERT MC-ING. D: Okay sidetracked. Yeah, another reason i liked the korean mv more is the setting of the mv. LOL the japanese mv setting is the same as SNSD's the boys mv. NOT THAT ITS NOT NICE, I just preferred the korean's setting.

All in all, it's a nice mv and worth watching. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEOKSpViv3s

I have so much to say, but i know i can't bring myself to say it.

Well well, anyway, ppl's asking me on tumblr about my bias in kpop groups like SHINee cos i seem to favour each and every one of them different times. ITS HARD TO CHOOSE LA. I mean, look. at. them. LOL. But when it comes to you know all propose to me, i have to marry one, LOL er, it's Jonghyun. :) You see, it's always the vocals that i'm attracted to by this 1% or maybe 2% more.

Then why Donghae and Yuri right?

Erm, Donghae's been the ONE, ever since June 2009. THE STORY'S REALLY LONG. I'll explain more during his birthday. :)

Well as for Yuri, she's really extraordinary to me. While people craze over Jessica's looks, or Taeyeon's voice ( WHICH I TOTALLY CRAZE OVER) , or even Yoona's natural beauty, I preferred Yuri. :) She's, the one i noticed in Gee cos she looks like yoona and i was totally confused about who's who. But now that i recognised her, and her unique looks, She's the one i truly admire being someone so hardworking, and just almost-perfect. :)

Was this when i started being a fan of her and tiffany's friendship? LOL. Er i don't rmb. But I know everyone knows i love her and tiffany the most in SNSD. :)

Hope my explanations are clear now.

I can never change my bias. LIKEWISE FOR EVERY SINGLE GROUP. I can never, understand how people can do that. It makes me lose, alot, rather, MOST of the basic respect for you. :) So if ANYONE that i know changes bias because of ANY reason, I'm so sorry, but, WE'RE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE SO LET'S NOT BE FRIENDS. :) AND. I'll take that ANYTIME. Even if you're my sibling or best friend. :) Glad that those who mattered to me never changes their opinion. ONLY. Those who mattered to me. Well i guess, there's alot people that don't matter, changes bias like drinking water. EASY, and FAST.

I'll post up the birthday wishes after my exams, so this will be my last post till then, :)

Lastly, I just want to say Minho's the most handsome 20 year old i've ever seen in my life. :)

Oh oh oh oh, and those people that gets influenced easily with other's opinions about groups or members, can kiss a donkey ass cos you're pretty much a jackass yourself don't you agree? Until these people can respect each and every one of the groups and members, I guess internal fanwars continue, BE IT OPENLY LIKE THIS, or DISCREETLY LIKE THIS AS WELL.

WHEE. :)

Have a fabulous dinner kkkk. Cos i'm having one!

Distractions.

2011-10-02T23:56:00.004+08:00

Yeah been really distracted these days. Have not been updating lately. Okay just a note to self and everyone that i'll post the birthday wishes soon, probably when my exams end. Shindong's, Henry's soon-to-come, DONGHAE ♥ ♥ ♥ 's soon-to-come. :) Krystal's too. :) My blog's turning into some kpop birthday blog. Hmmm, i will update about myself soon too. Life's been sucky for september, and honestly, I DREAD OCTOBER because my exams are hereeeeeeeeeee. But for him, I'm surviving somehow.

I need a break soon. Things aren't on the right track, and i don't like it. Long time no say, FML. :X

Languages down, i'm left with 6 more subjects, 8 more papers! C'mon you can do it ziyannnn.

-Keep in mind that i love you.- Yeah, i'm keeping that in mind always recently, beautiful men of my life. :)

Chukahaeyo Key!

2011-09-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEYYYYY! :D

You're 20 now, so young. :D It's just five years of age gap haha. Hmm, As usual, stay really really healthy, happy and i hope to see you again, in SG. :D You remind me of Heechul, a lot, but, mmm, there's a very distinct difference that make you, Uniquely you. For me it'll be your voice. Haha, okay pretty obvious. WELLLLLL, I like your voice especially when you sing ballads. It haven't change since debut days, and i like it. May you get a chance to sing a solo soon, and i hope to see you with better vocals this november..? :D Saranghaeyo. COMEBACK FIGHTING!

Today's SJ Acha comeback was nice. :) Hopefully they'll win soon. :D They seemed to be working alot harder to cover the missing members. Rest well.

Today was fun. :D It was a total crappy week. September's been a harshhhh month.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYOYEON! That was yesterday. Still, all the best for comeback. :D

You can cry now.

2011-09-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

It's been actually, a few days since i've watched the last episode. I tried so hard to fight the urge to not watch because i know, the ending hurts. In the end, i guess, i wanted to face the reality, together with other fans. I used 4 tissues the 1st time i watched the last episode. The 2nd time i used 4 pieces as well. Just now, I rewatched it again, i used 4 pieces still. I need time :X

Because especially in the last episode, i can really really, feel the love they shared, the care they had for each other, and most importantly, the memories they've had over 456 days. And it's in this episode, that i can for once, strongly feel that Victoria loves nichkhun so much more, and it tells me how much she really really enjoyed being with such a prince, with a house, a car, and many events planned for her, telling her, you can cry if you want.

And the last card message she wrote for him, "...... Nichkhun's wish of me crying, i'm sorry i can't fulfill it. ....."

But the true fact is she cried so much over the ending. And he knows.

They know, they understand, they accept, and they ended.

I absolutely love this couple, from day till day 456, i've also spent with them. Their hugs, their sweet arguments, their each and every memory gave me expectations to a happy married life. Sigh, now that they're over, i don't know what to expect anymore. Hmmm, haha. I accepted this well, though with tears, i'm really glad this couple existed. They fit each other like how well each and every band/group completes their group.

"You know, i'll always be by your side... right?" -Nichkhun. 31/8/11

Sweet intoxication.

2011-09-17T23:00:00.004+08:00

Real hectic week i had. Didn't go out any day at all. Had been finishing up my geog project for monday and wednesday until school chase us out, and i'm really glad it's almost done! Left adding the labels then ok already. :) Other days were all long and tiring and i've been heading home straight to rest and catch up with my usual stuffs on the net.

Really addicted to reading other's stories on tumblr. I'm really tempted to write my own series as well. Hmmm, hopefully there's a chance. Always wanted to write a book since i have a perfect imagination that runs pretty wild at stuffs like ... death, love, life-especially enjoying real good life. Can't believe i finished reading a full 100 chapters in 4hours, my eyes was glued to the screen while i read and click the next chapter. From thurday night, i've been wanting to rush home to read stories. :) Now, i've probably completed a few stories and few hundred chapters in just 2 days. Woke up at 10am this morning to read and now it's 11, i've probably read about 200 chapters today, different stories of cos. Lol, not all stories are that long. Hope everyone i followed update soon!!!! :D :D Followed many new people to read, and now i've like 30 more different stories to complete. :) :) AHHHHHH, real bad time to get addicted now.

Posts have been wordy and here's a adorable picture! :D He's beautiful right. So, small and ... tiny and just fragile. Dad said you'll never know that anything could be that small and beautiful until you hold them in your hands. Lol, was talking about having children to him. Made me really tempted. (?) to have a child really quickly. Just thinking if the pain of giving birth and being pregnant would be worth it all. If i had a kid like myself, i'll probably die lol. Just hope my child won't turn out like his/her mum. It's probably the second thing i wished the most other than for my child to be healthy. :P

Anyway, it's been really a relaxing day for me. :) No naggings. No unhappy things at all.

I actually didn't have a single idea that my sister went japan lol, or was it another country. OHWELLS she came back with gifts for meh. :) And my mummy freaking picked up a dslr at the void deck opposite my house. She said it was there for rather long and no one took it, she went to see what's that and it was heavy and she just grabbed it home. I SAW HER CARRYING A DSLR AND I'M LIKE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. :D Yay it's mine now. :P HEHEHEH, okay i need to get the charger and usb and whatever's needed for the canon 500d in my hands now. :P HAPPY GIRL NOW. But i have no idea how to use it. SO CHIM LA. It's okay, google's my bestie. :)

Tomorrow's gonna be tiring, shall sleep now.

Lastly, getting texts from unexpected people really. (Y) Especially those who made you flutter or just smile. And i was surprised today, it's like we're old friends talking about old times. And i'm glad we're both on our path to pursue whatever's needed in our lifes happily. Things changed, and we changed. Awkwardness no longer surround us, and we're truly comfortable now. Thanks for taking the first step after more than a year to talk, and clear all the mistakes away. :) Can't believe someone actually agreed to get attached with you, she must be real nice.

Hahaha, it's been a greatttt day. :)

SHINEE WORLD CONCERT SG

2011-09-11T10:32:00.004+08:00

As expected, its so awesome!!!! :D :D :D I enjoyed myself alot throughout the concert with Cheryl and Shan. It was so tiring at 1st, cos of camp, but the day ended with so much happiness, and of course, tears. X:

First was shinee world, the opening was EXACTLY THE SAME as previous concerts. :) At that moment, i was really overwhelmed with excitement. Its like OhMyGod, they're really here. AND I'm here too! Yeah, Taemin appeared, then key, then onew, then minho, lastly, Jonghyun. :D They seemed so tired then. The first set, intro songs, were all dancey? so they lipsynced for Shinee world, get down - the live performances changed my opinion of the song. I really like it now. , senorita, juliette. Think amigo was live? I forgot.

Then they sang stand by me, your name, and our love still goes on live. :D :D Jonghyun's mike had some problem at the start of the concert but the staff changed his mike very quickly so it was okayy. :D After Stand by me, they introduced themselves in korean and only key said: "Hello singapore, this is key!" And everyone screamed. Haha, cute boy with his perfect pronunciation of english.

Solo stage, Taemin's 1st. It was, wow. His vocals really improved, and i'm happy to see his dancing, with my own eyes, LIVE. :D

Then it was Jonghyun's solo. OMG HE SANG THE WHOLE FIRST VERSE AND CHORUS OF THE SONG IN PURE FALSETTO. D: D: D: I was totally taken aback by his perfect vocals. Then the second verse, he went back to his singing voice, which sounded perfect as well. I liked it. :D Alot. Plus, its fucking live so, there's totally nothing to dislike. D:

Then Minho's. OH.MY.GOSH. Seriously, it was just, OHMYGOSH. HIS 8 PACK IS. $#!$^@*#$!#^ SAME AS SIWON'S D: D: D: I like the song alot, and his dancing. Plus he sang live as well, although it wasn't completely live cos he didn't sing the entire song due to the dancing so it was hard to breathe for singing? Still, he sang pretty much and sounded great. I love this man.

Then it was Key's MY FIRST KISS FEATURING. LEE.TAE.MIN. AHHHHHH!!!! So prettaye and funny and just awesome. I think it's during here i relaxed a little, cos they seemed happier. Not as tired as before.

After that, it was AYOOOO, funny and fun and everyone followed the actions of drawing hearts. :D Sweet serenades set was. Tearful. LOL. Okay what can you expect from me.

I broke down at romantic, the song that really turned me into a shawol after seeing a live performance of it last year online. It was the first ballad song from them i've ever heard, and i fell in love with Key's voice there. Then it was obsession. The song, that i listened to umpteen times last year, cos it was written by Jonghyun. I really liked their vocals in that song, it's overwhelming and just loud? for a soft rock kinda ballad. Next was graze. Another favourite song of mine. Cried. So. Hard. I'm glad i got to listened to all these songs live. Onew's was pitch-perfect, without his earpiece. So was Jonghyun.

Then they sang their debut song, replay and love like oxygen. I liked that era alot, esp LLO. :D

K, this was the part whereby i dreaded + anticipated the most. The saddest ballad they've ever had, Quasimodo. It was. Hmmm. Goosebumpish. I told myself not to cry at all, when they played the mv before they appeared and sang it live. And i remained stunned throughout the song, it was perfect. Jonghyun's I'm trying dying crying for you was so. Beautiful. Still, i hold my tears in, looking upwards so that it wont flow down. Then the last line, where onew sang, saranghae, k it flowed out like some tap water, just kept going on.

Ultimate favourite song of theirs is next. I knew it. But still, I was scared to listen. D: Don't know why. Just, it was unbelievable that i'm really listening to my favourite song of theirs live. It's been my favourite song for a year completely, ever since i first heard it last october. I lied on shan's shoulder, cos i was REALLY scared to hear it. I've probably cried 70% of the times i heard that song, and i hear it at least once per day, not to mention when i first heard it, i played it repeatedly for months. Even up till now, it's the most played song on my phone. I can never get tired of it. Fyi, second most played is Jonghyun's first ever OST, so goodbye. :P

So yeah, i got up when they started singing from shan's shoulder and just decided i can do it. I listened, teared, smiled, and thanked many in silence. Thanked god, for fulfilling my wish of listening to this live, and crying officially. :X Thanks for the song Life, which changed my life as well. Thanked them, for singing it exactly the way they always had but it was a little different cos Onew lipsynced i think, he was really tired. Plus next was his solo. So, yeah, it's still perfect. Thanked Shan, for knowing i was crying yet allowed me to, and just stayed beside me. Thanked mummy, for allowing me to go for this concert, which is the best day ever since 2011 second half year started.

I can never say it's the best because, i guess it's obvious SS3 is irreplacable. The smile, look, and wave donghae gave me, in the eye, still inspires me when i feel like giving up on something up till now. He's my main source of strength these days. Still September 10th holds the 2nd best day of my life. Lastly, i thanked myself for never regretting liking them, and giving them the rights to affect my life so much.

Then it was Onew's solo. He defines perfect. That's all i can say. I liked his solo stage alot, probably the most. His voice, at times like then, really surpasses jonghyun's strong voice, because, it has the ability to touch people. He reminded me of Jaejoong. Very much.

Final set was hit songs. RDD came and it was different from other performances cos there was a dance part whereby all of them danced, and key and taemin had a solo dance part. :D It was daebak really, but onew really looked tired. X:

Up and down was happy and lively, all the members pointed to key and sang. So was ready or not, onew looked like he had fun here, i was more ease then.

Closing song was Lucifer. It was REALLY NICE AHHHHHHHHHHH. Hahahahahaha, i liked the extra rap part alot. Lasers were nice as well. :) They looked really hot, especially taemin and jonghyun.

Encore stage was fantastic. Jojo was really soothing, bodyguard was funny and high cos they started splashing water at each other and throwing balls. Key kissed every ball he threw to the audience. They then talked again, and said it was a happy and fun day and their thankful for us etc, then onew introed the last song, one.

I obviously cried lol. It was another favourite song of mine. I liked the meaning behind the song, so sweet and truthful. They sang, playing around still. :)

And the concert ended, with them bowing thrice 90 degrees to us, thanks speech and of cos key's happy birthday song. We're prepared to sing the korean version, but jonghyun led us to sing the english one instead. :D He's so cute. Key was very touched, and he was really delighted. :) :) I smiled.

Well, we didn't wanna leave so much. Haha, still we took few shots of the stage, and left unwillingly, with me still crying so much. D: AHHHHH, i'm embarrassed. Then, went to look for melody and took photos but before that both of us screamed like siao when shinee came out of the stadium in their van and me and melody ran from the side of the bridge allllll the way to end of the bridge!!!!! SO HAPPY AHAHAHAHAHAH THEY WERE PLAYING IPAD LOL. Yeah, the night ended with smiles and screams with cheryl and shan instead of tears on my own. :)

I'm happy now, that my life's complete. I've seen all the people i've wanted to in my life. It was a dream. Yet they all came true. So thankful for everything. I've said that my life would be complete if i saw shinee perform with my own eyes, and now, it's completed. I have nothing else to ask for in my life, but only wish that all the men that mattered so much to me living on the other side of the world stays healthy and happy. :)

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/01/super-show-3.html (where i mentioned my life is complete if i saw them.)

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/01/annyeong-2011.html (where one of wish was to attend their concert.)

Despite all the complains and shit in my life i have, i'm always mindful that i'm lucky to have the ability and opportunity to pursue what i really want and like. And i'm thankful, to have friends that supports me throughout no matter what happens.

It's pretty amazing how people don't know of your existence, can have the ability to change you, into someone better i guess. They changed me, alot, and i'm grateful to the most important men of my life, for allowing me to realise that, it's not always just about studies and just achieving As. It's about enjoying what you are doing, and staying happy because, you only live once. You can always freaking study hard and achieve As anytime, but attending concerts like this is once in a lifetime. You can definitely feel happy to be a top scorer in the nation, but i'm pretty sure, nothing beats having someone(s) that inspires you in the path of life to perform something you loved and that person(s) travelled half the world just to perform, and the amount of satisfaction you get from just a look, or a smile they gave, covers every single shit you have to go through.

And for this, i'm even more thankful to shinee, who allowed me to treasured whatever donghae gave me even more.

This post is wordy, and i know. It's for me to read next time, so that i'll never forget the way i'm feeling right now.

Last but not least, I wanna thank them again.

Donghae.
Onew.
Jonghyun.
Minho.
Key.
Taemin.
Kyuhyun.
Leeteuk.
Eunhyuk.
Shindong.
Heechul.
Ryeowook.
Siwon.
Yesung.
Kangin.
Sungmin.
Hankyung.
Kibum.
Yunho.
Changmin.
Jaejoong.
Yoochun.
Junsu.
Yuri.
Tiffany.
Sunny.
Yoona.
Taeyeon.
Jessica.
Hyoyeon.
Seohyun.
Sooyoung.
Show Luo.
Junho.
Nichkhun.
Victoria.
Kystal.
Sulli.
Amber.
G dragon.
Seungri.
Jokwon.
Changmin.
Seulong.
Jinwoon.
Gyuri.
Hara.
Jiyoung.
Nicole.
Seungyeon.
Yonghwa.
GaIn.

Yeah, thats the list of people that inspired me in one way or another in my 15 years of life. They're the people that touched me with their stories, or life they had or words they've said, or songs they've sang. Other than that those that i've cried over in dramas are unofficial lol, cos its in a scripted show. Like, its not really real. So, i'm sorry i can't add alot ppl in. Btw it's in no order okay. I was trying to rmb who made me cry lol. NOT IN A DRAMA ONES ARE HARD. :P

Bye. If you really read until this end of the post, i'm thankful. :)

Darkness in your eyes.

2011-09-07T18:08:00.003+08:00

Wellwell, its SEPTEMBERRRRRRR. And jonghyun's on the calendar. :)

Let's see.

Heechul's departure for army enlistment.
Khuntoria's ending in 2 more episodes.
SWC in 3 more days.
Choir camp.
Exams starting in 20days for me.
Key's birthday.
Hyoyeon's birthday. (Although she's not in my list.)
Shindong's birthday.

Honestly, despite the few plus point, everything practically sucked about this month so far.

Month didn't start well. Then, khuntoria's ending with 64 episodes. THATS LESSER THAN ADAM couple. Well, the only couple i watch WGM now is leaving. Grats, i'm not watching it anymore, which implies more time for me to study...? LOL WHATEVER. I dread september 17th. I'll cry more than Yongseo. Definitely. D: D:

Choir camp = sian. I don't need to explain. NOR STATE WHY. ITS JUST LIKE THAT.

Exams is beginning. Ohf, it's already a year. HAVE NO IDEA IT PASSED THISSSSS FAST. Scares me. Problem is, i'm totally not prepared. Haiz.

Well, that leaves me with the only happy things of this month. Yes, SWC in 3 days. :) :) :) Finally, a chance to listen to them. Watch them. LIVE. This time round. i'll go in with a happy mood, and NOT expect the concert to be similar to SS3. Because, this time round, i learnt my lesson from then. :) It's gonna be a happy. HAPPY concert. Other than this, the birthdays. Hmmm. I'll look forward to october 11th! :D IT'LL BE THE DAY WHEREBY I'M GONNA GO SMILEYS AND GO PARTEHHHHHHHH OR something like that. :P

Camp's tmr. I. Have. Nothing. To. Say. Just hope it'll be a time, i'll be more bonded with people. And, a time that i see the seniors. Again. :) :)

Well well, SEE DA BEAUTIFUL MEN OF MY LIFE THERE. :)

Even jonghyun likes them. Heh, he's looking at them.

SJ MERCHANDISE ON DISPLAYYYY. :P :P Haha.

MY LIGHTSTICKKKKK. :D

I. TOTALLY. DREAD. THIS. MONTH. AND OCTOBERR.

SIAN AHHHHHHH. It's all too fast.

An ending brings about another start.

2011-09-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

Of a long journey. :)

Annyeong, saranghaeyo.. Gidarilke.

I'm fine now. :)

Plain depressed.

2011-08-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

After watching the first episode, i was really happy. :) But seeing the preview of ep 2, i. Don't even dare to watch it. 10 members crying. Can die right now. Been sooooo sian these days that i can't even snap out of it. Honestly, this is affecting me more than i expected. More than gaining 10000kg, or parents being some assholes. I don't even know why. Who effing gave them the right to mess up someone's life. Oh yeah, me.

8 members stage. Came faster than i expected.

Tearing every night, every shower, every quiet and alone moments, afraid of the days left.

Guess it'll be over soon. Probably after the day itself, i'll accept it totally already. I'm fine. :) Continuing to believe. In the people i had, and will always believe.

So sian that i don't even want to do anything but watch them.

I think. I'm having some depression lol. Haven't been like this ever since 09. AH GOD WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEE.

Your place is here.

2011-08-27T17:10:00.003+08:00

Been a really long week. Eventful. Hectic. Filled with. Up and downssss. Notice the plural form of down. Don't even know where to start.

K monday was really sad la, cos of Heechul's leaving. Cried so much. So much. Similar amount to when Hankyung's leaving. That was 2 years ago. I still remember how vividly, how much heechul had to handle, and how hard i took it. Now it's like a cycle. All over again. Still remembered how much Super Girl hit the asia's charts, how much it promoted the group, 3 months after, Hankyung. Hmm, left? With a whole new album this april, SJM became a different group. Realised how much they went through. Again. Yeah my whole point is just, how much it changed things. And how much it hurts.

Like i've asked many, and myself. 2 years. Can i really wait another 2 years. And until then, enjoy a stage of only 8 people, since next year, it'll be leeteuk leaving?

And i asked the most important question of them all, crying.

"When will i ever have the chance to see a 13 group on stage again?"

Even now, tears just dropped, thinking of the probability again.

I know no one around me understands truly how it feels. They've never experience a full 13 group, and the pain of seeing them decreasing in numbers each performance. I don't even know how to continue this anymore. So sensitive right now. K, let's just end here. No matter what, their place never changes. Right here. In my life.

Anyway thanks so much for Shan and Mel and Fatty listening to all these crap from me the past few days. Even though they don't understand, yet a listening ear was all i need at times like this. They listened, encouraged, even though it didn't help LOL, er, and just. Made me feel like, there's always a positive side to things. :)

Tuesdays are usually the suckiest day laaa duhhh. Cca, all the core subject lessons, even worse, going to school with the whole-day-sian-over-heechul's mood.

Wednesday was funnnnnn. Went to ArtFriend with Geog project members and laughed so much i cried. For one moment when i really laughed, i forgot about all the sadness i had within me. But then it came back soon after, so at Artfriend i became sian. Well, This day was Yesung's 27th birthday! :D

Happy birthday Kim Jong Woon! You're 27 worldwide now, and i hope you stay healthy and happy always. Your vocals are honestly the best in SJ and one of the best among all Kpop idols. In fact, your voice is very unique and i like it a lot. Although personally i like a more soft voice like Ryeowook, or Donghae, i admit you're the best in singing among SJ, and KRY.

Still remembered how the whole audience sang It has to be you during your solo stage in SS3 SG. :) You took off your earpiece and listened to us. It is, definitely, the best OST song of 2010, and my favourite song from you. This year you sang so many OSTs, proving how much PDs want you to raise the drama's popularity.

You're 4th in SJ according to age and again, as much as i don't want to admit, you're so good looking and according to looks ranking for me, you're above Donghae by this little bit. :P You look way too younger than your age. Happiest 27th, and i love you.

On 21st Aug it was Kibum's 24th birthday as well.

Haha okay i took a picture whereby you can't even be seen. Oh wells. :P HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY KIBUM :D Hmmm, even though you don't participate in the group's activities anymore since 2009, but i still treat you like a SJ member. I watched your movie, and searched for news on your acting. Honestly, i don't understand why you have to drop SJ activities to concentrate on acting, but i believe you love SJ alot too and for you to do that, you must love acting so much. :) I remember how you and donghae spoke in english in Full house, hahahahaha. And in EHB, how cute you were. Just last year, i read in an article about your words to every single member in SJ. And i deeply trust that you'll always be with them. :) Saranghae♥

Gave Jingyi's her present yesterday! She loved it haha, i'm so happy. Spent hours doing it and monehhhhhhhh printing photos, and stuffs. I'm broke. ): ): Still, i crave all the nice nice food suddenly and i'm gonna eat them all with shan tmr. :P K ytd went to Jp wanting to watch the dancers perform but they performed earlier than the initiated time so i missed it. Went KFC dinner with bro and his friends and met Jingyi with her family. We talked about 30 minutes or so? Yeah, was really happy yesterday. :D Until night lol. Started crying again. HAIZZZZZ. Watching SJ's so emotional. They cry i cry. They happy i laugh. D: D: X: X:

Its, 5 days to Heechul's leaving. )': And 15 days to SWC SG. :) I really hope all these important men of my life stay healthy and happy. :)

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Superman's MV is honestly. SAD. It actually made me tear. LOLOLOL. Yeah basically it had clips of SS3 which brought back memories. :) That 3 hours was the best really. People are here and there critisizing how stingy SM is, saving on MV monehhhh. I agree, but its SM style people. Their mvs had always been cheap at cost, and not as nice as YG's. If you just realised how they work then, i'm so sorry for the disappointment. Honestly the song is what it matters. Superman. :) :) Its a total 4.5/5 for me. I liked it. :)

ITS SO WORDY OMG THIS POST. D: Okay, my eventful week. :) Gonna eat dinner now, and gain fatttttsssss.

Leaving you with my 4jib and 5jib. :D SEE THE VAST DIFF HAHAHAHA. Okay the cost also had a vast diffffff. Well 4jib was given by my big bro. :) SO HAHAHAHAHAH. BYEEE.

After 9 months

2011-08-20T20:17:00.004+08:00

After 9 months, goguma couple. :) Still remembered i cried so hard watching their last ep.

Get together already. For real, for god sake, and heaven's love, please? Ugh.

And once again, i teared abit. :') GONNA GO WATCH A FEW EPS AGAIN. Yonggg~ Hyun~~~ Haha, loved how they called each other.

Favourite convo of them :

YH: If a goguma and i fall into the sea, which one will you save first?

SH: *-.-!* " GOGUMA OF COURSE "

YH" *Nods head in disappointment, yet still smiling."

SO ANNOYING LA ALL THIS CUTE PPL IN THE WORLD. RAWRRRR. Okay, i love love love this concert's PD. He/She brought them back together, and its one of my favourite kpop duets of all time. :)

He's so overtaking MinHyuk in my CNBLUE LIST AHHHHHHHHH.

Okay, enjoy the video. :)

BTW I BOUGHT MY 5JIB HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I'm once again, a broke, and happy girl. :) :) :) :) :) It's the donghae cover copy of 5jib. Managed to get his! :) If i had enough money, i'll probably get Siwon's or Yesung's or Kyuhyun's one as well. So happy hahahahahahahaha. I LOVE JAYI ANYWAY. :D She's so cute hahahaha.

DONGHAE AHHH, Pogoshipo. 29/1/11 best dayyyyyyyyyyy.

Went out with her just now to pei her buy some stuffs and ite, i spend over 50 bucks and she just spend less than half of mine. GRRRRrrrrr. Nonetheless, i'm still going to buy version B i tink, even though it's not counted in GDA sales i think. Well, its cheaper, AND I LOVE THEM SO WHY NOT HAHAHAHAH. Okay, another save money week. :)

Pretty proud that i only spend about 14 bucks from mon to fri and managed to have enough for the weekend and bought something i've wanted for 3 fucking long weeks. :)

Kekekekeke, Gonna spam listening to full ver banmal song now. :)

P/s: Today's Shinee's 4th stop of SWC in Nanjing. Hope everthing goes well and they really rest well for the SG's stop. I don't want another heartbreak watching the concert. Tw's one really made me )': I love you SW :)

P/s2: Been abit fangirling over YaoZhiYong heh. With melly. :) Zy + Zy = Ziyan + Zhi Yong. HAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY LAME. Whatever, he's really kinda cute and i love love love his hair. :)

Impossible.

2011-08-19T20:46:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry but i just can't do it. I can't force myself to do it. I'm this mean i guess. No amount of letters or words will change anything. Unintentionally, things you've said, annoyed me little by little.

Sincerely, me. :)

Anyway, i don't think i'll be posting much unless my life gets better than this. Miss yuanshan so much. Hmmm. :)

With these anticipations, i cant.

2011-08-15T19:37:00.004+08:00

Yeah I can't.

Okay, as i've said, i'll have a LONGGGGGG POST to satisfy cha. :)

FIRSTLY, ON 1 AUGUST, It's Tiffany's birthday. :D Chuka haeyo Tiffany! Stay pretty and happy always please, and i really like you for everything you are. :D Although Yuri's gonna be top on the list always, you'll always have the power to ruin that list. Nonetheless, you're my second bias in SNSD!

2. 5th august, was these 9 girl's 4th anniversary. :) I don't really understand all of them as much as others, therefore i don't really call myself a sone or sth, but it's really honoured to know such people existed, and in one small way, they changed my life a little. Well, at least, i know even though they're so plastic or just so, fake on the outside, there's something really worth knowing in them. And i know that something is what makes me defend all the stereotypical thoughts or words i encounter online, or in reality.

Likeeee, yeah man, at least they're pretty and really attractive, unlike you, talking about how fake they are. I MEAN HELLO, its like something they've done to improve flaws they think they have, and they can freaking show their beauty better now. So WHY THE HELL NOT. -.- Accept the new world, yeah? Those kinda thing. LOL.

YURI♥TIFFANY♥YOONA♥SUNNY♥TAEYEON♥SEOHYUN♥HYOYEON♥SOOYOUNG♥JESSICA.

Yepppp thats my list for snsd, in terms of who i like best. :)

3. 7th august. Uhh, It's Jingyi's birthday! :D

Hello, you should be reading this. :D Cos i'm going to make you read. :D Ummmmm, you're probably the only person i does a longgggggggggggggggg birthday post for other than all those people living in korea. LOLOL. Uhhh, okay. Hello, baby+cowwie+lamest-person-on-earth-second-to-melody+everything we've been through since we met. :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR! You've grown SOOOOOOO much, and i'm glad our friendship remained close even though our classes are so different. :) I'm again, very sorry for giving you belated gift. I promise it'll be done asap okay. And you'll like it, hopefully.

Thank you so much, as i've said, for being the most important person in my secondary school life so far, and i really appreciate how much you understand about me despite we 'argue' or 'bicker' or rather, suan each other every, other time. We seem so different, everything wise i guess? Except the part when we gossip haha. We fit in so well together, like a melody that harmonizes the lyrics perfectly. Or in your case, like a dance that matches the rhythm so, nicely. You dance, i sing, half the time, we argue, play around, the other half, we gossip and plan pranks tgt on ppl. I'll probably never find someone that's willing to play all this stupids actions we've done with me, or dance whenever i sing something you know the moves to. :)

So, i'm gonna end my dedication here cos i need to leave some for my card for you. Hmm, i hoped you enjoyed your mini gathering with the 3 of us the other day, in celebration for your birthday as well. I love you, my best friend. SUNNY! :D

WOOHOO SNSD CAP :D The 8th outing day. :D

Ate sushi and ramen :) TONS OF SUSHI. BUFFET FTW. W/ melody.

Hope the 4 of us remain like this always. :)

On the 8th, its also my brother's birthday! :D Happy birthday sexaye, may you get a girlfriend real soon. :) ♥

Shinee's Juliette mv came out about a week ago. :) OKAY I NOT SLOW OKAY I JUST LAZY POST. Hmmmmm, i think it's really well shot. The storyline is still the same, masquerade. I preferred the korean one more though, not because it was the original song, or sth. But cos Jonghyun wrote the korean lyrics for it. And if i haven't mentioned before, Juliette was one of my favourite era. :) :)

Kiss kiss kiss is just (Y). Loved Onew's voice inside the most. And i think Minho got like two lines as well? :D :D

SNSD BAD GIRL IS JUST. Hmmmmm. Disappointing? I mean, the sexiness and the hotness is there, but it's really. WOW, abit, miley cyrus already. NOT SAYING I HATE IT, cos i like miley cyrus's songs actually. Just. Hmmmm, too much, esp for seohyun i guess? LOL. She just don't fit that sexy goddesses image. Oh well. And the dance is really like what mr pras say, chicken. Too simple for them i think. They can manage better ones like ummmm, okay i realised all their dance not that complicated compared to other girl groups, but at least a ITNW kinda thing? This is like popping + indian dance abit. LOL. The song is addicting, as usual, SM's style. But the autotuning is wayyyyyy to heavy and much for me. FOR ME. This song literally have everything autotuned. Everyone except Taeyeon(abit), Tiffany(abit), and i think Jessica(abit)? sounds the same. LIKE THEY HAVE THE SAME VOICE. Well. Well.

P/S: I don't mind autotuning, but BG is filled with it. Hmm. No wonder i disliked the song before when i first heard it back then when the album just released. They need more Let it rain, or Born to be a lady kinda thing.

Lalalala, SJ! :D Okay i just wanna analyse 4jib and 5jib. Overall, I think, i give 4jib a rating of 10 out of 10 and 5jib 9.8 out of 10. Various reasons actually. But still, I preferred Mr Simple more than Bonamana, cos i liked the dance more and the rap alot. Both are catchy, and the other songs are all fantastic on each albums. I can't wait for Mr simple repackaged album. The only reason why i gave 4jib 0.2 more is cos there's 3 more songs and there's a Ryeowook solo. (Y) Other than that, both albums = @!#!Q%@W$%^UADFSGJMS okay indescribable.

Lastly, i'm broke and fat. So to save money and lose weight, i'm eating alot lesser this month i guess. :) Byby! :D

P.s: MOCK TEST WAS A REALLLLLLLLL BITCH. So hard and i don't believe that's a express chinese standard. SO MUCH HARDER THAN HIGHER CHINESE LA WALAO. D:< D:<

Love letter for you.

2011-08-10T18:42:00.002+08:00

Okay my title's are usually weird la cos i can't think of a suitable one. Usually, lyrics that i like or listening to right now, or song titles. :)

Eating my BIGGGGGG bowl of rice infront of the computer right now and therefore squeezing something out here. I have things to post about ALOT IN FACT, dates i haven't congratulate, and stuffs like that. But, due to some reason, i haven't. So.... be patient k.

It's coming soon! :D

Excited. For. __________________ . HA.

Bye.

Mr Simple.

2011-08-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

Remember when i said it was the most anticipated comeback of the year?

HELL YEAH IT IS.

Surpassed ALL my expectations of it. Looks, dance, singing, mv's visual. (Y) x infinity. The dance is SOOOOOOO HARD OMG and they danced it like a boss. Lucifer seems chicken now.

MR SIMPLE. (Y) ♥

Its so catchy and just so fantastic. They sound exactly SJ funky like SS and Bonamana. What's really different is that Eunhyuk's major improvement in singing, and Leeteuk's rapping. :) I have nothing to say about others. Its really perfection. The dance really i just can't stop praising it. I've basically never seen a dance that looks fucking simple yet its complicated like some maze when they position themselves and at the dancing part during raps and dance time for them other than sorry sorry and i think this fling hand action is SO cool. I like Eunhae's lead dancing in the start of the song, Donghae's part alot as well. ALRIGHT? ALRIGHT! :D HAHA.

Yeah man just grab it, grab it. :)

Again and again, only they can bring the fullest out. I see the sorry sorry era repeating again, i hope. :) OHYEAHMAN C'MON DAESUNG FOR GDA 2011! :D

Other songs on the album are really nice too, and i'm definitely getting a copy of 5JIB like i've said umpteen times, even though i already have all the songs in my phone. :) Gonna spam spazzing on YT with others for the mv. RAISE THE NUMBER OF COMMENTS HAHAHAHAH. :D

Melody finally realised how amazing these 10 men are. :)

All of them looks really good in the MV. :) I'M HAPPY LIKE SOME BABY JUST SMILED AT ME. :) Okay not a really good analogy. WELL I'M LIKE A CHERRY ON A ICE CREAM TOP. :) HIGH~~

Alright? ALRIGHT! HAHAHAH SO NICE AHHHHHHH.

I realised because it's their last album. For probably a very long time. I. Really feel happy and sad at same time. But seeing how much these people achieved, really motivates me and just makes me feel like i've not done much for them at all. Limited. Power. I know how much this album's gonna mean to them, and i really hope they achieved another Daesang because they hell yes deserve it more than SNSD. Really. This year's GDA just made both fandoms had too much conflicts. I'm not saying SNSD don't deserve a daesang, but srsly? Compared to this people who probably lost only cos of those lawsuits going on, and missing members of the group, i really think it was just. Not justified. Its like if shinee gets a daesang this year for some reason cos the other choice for the award had some stuffs going on. I'M PRETTY SURE YOU WOULDN'T WANT THEM TO WIN THE AWARD NOT DUE TO PURE HARD WORK AND ACHIEVEMENTS RIGHT.

Oh wells, agree or not, this is my opinion.

Donghae, Leeteuk, Eunhyuk, Kyuhyun, Ryeowook, Sungmin, Yesung, Siwon, Shindong, Heechul. ♥

Let's pray and aim for 5wins. :) :)

I'm GONNA WATCH THEIR COMEBACK TMR I DON'T CARE. I probably ..... Heh.

I'm tired. Shall talk more next time. :) Till then! MR SIMPLE IS (Y) AND I LOVE SJ.

Mr Simple.

2011-08-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

Next post gonna be really soon! :D Give me some time. :) Loads to say esp the title related stuffs. :P And ........... BYE!

P/s: Its gonna be. Emotional?

He said after 5jib. No albums at all temporarily. Idk how long. But. I'm waiting. :) Forever promise to believe. I. Cried. D:

Cause you're still in my room.

2011-07-30T23:45:00.003+08:00

I. GOING. TO. SHINEE WORLD CONCERT.

SAY WHATTTTTTT? YEAH CTS I'M ATTENDING THEIR CONCERT~ :D

Not arena tickets though, but it's still good terrace seat cos no arena ppl blocking us. :) :) WHEE :D The best days of my life. 29 Jan. AND SOON TO COME 10 SEPT WHEE HEEE. ^^

Dam ass proud. :) K-POP topping German charts.

Gonna go cut hair soon. Trying to type a post asap. :) BEEN SO LAZY TO POST ACTUALLY. Okay, tons of homework to complete. Chinese bzbd, AMATH linear law, Physics( although idc), Chemistry. Sian max. Gonna sleep late again tonight.

Went Ikea after school in the evening on Fri with classmates to buy class furni? LOL. K we bought 3 shelves to put our books and just stuffs, and 4boxes for files and etc. :) Yesterday went to get Shinee Tic. Wasted our trip la, but still got tickets and talked hell loads of stuffs with Shann. Was still a fun but super tiring day. Had physics tuition just now. NOW, i'm off to cut my hair. My hairdresser came :) :)

SHINee juliette jap ver. (Y) Wanna see the whole mv and comment about it next time. :)

3rd aug - Jieru's bd.

5th aug - SNSD's 4th anniversary.

7th aug - JY's bd.

8th aug - Bro's bd.

9th aug - Nation's bd.

22nd Aug - Zhiming's bd.

26 Aug - Reine's bd.

AUGUST. IS. SO. EVENTFUL. And.... the calendar page is soooooo prettaye. :) All five of them. :)

Watched SS2's concert dvd again! SO NICE~~~ Worth my 20 bucks. LOL. Includes every song and behind the scenes with Chinese subs. :) :)

I need to save money. This week. I spent. about. 300 bucks. WONDERFUL. _|_

K BYE MY MUM'S CALLING ME AT THE LIFT TO ASK ME GET OUT OF THE HOUSE NOW. LOLOLOL.

Proud of your love.

2011-07-28T21:30:00.001+08:00

About 10 days back had our Racial Harmony Day celebration. Class performed and got second :) Fun max but omg super dam paiseh.

W/ JAYI.

Table 8. :)

Nicole, Chloe, Jingyi and Jayi wore costumes.

Melody and Carina wore their chinese dance costumes to perform for RHD also.

Sx and me wore just white top and black bottoms for our dance performance.

Ummmm. Common tests are over like a finally. Been really hardworking by studying for tests as much as possible and doing hmwk on time. Seems like so long before i did all these. Gonna do my chinese soon, its ten now. D: A hectic week of laughter, disappointment and encouragements. Went Koi with Jayi yesterday and talked for 2 hours lol. Met so many people. D: Exchanged personal secrets. Well at least a common thing between us is that WE NEED HOT GUYS IN OUR LIFE. BEFORE OUR EYES. Like a impossible only in CSS. -.- Aiya handsome one all graduated. ;X Yeah, surprised by myself. I actually can mention you as and when i like nowadays with no feelings attached.

Mummy sort of agreed to let me go concert.

Me: "Mi, can i go watch concert?"

Mummy: "Who's?"

Me: "Shinee lor."

Mummy thinks and kept quiet for a few seconds.

And said: "Up to you lor, you happy go then go lor" reluctantly.

Now's just the buying of arena tickets. D:

Dad's not well again. Hmmm.

Yes, i feel like you don't have the right to know them. Because of the past and it's bothering. Sometimes it's more than replacing this with that or finding this to ease that, why don't you EVER get it. Rather, your. If one day you will ever realise how detesting things are now, or just understand for a moment in our shoes how we feel about everything, YOU'LL PROBABLY UNDERSTAND WHY OUR REACTIONS ARE SO HALFHEARTED.

Chinese lessons are fun. :) 6 more days to 5jib. ^^ 2 more days to sale of tix for SWC SG.

Lastly, cowwie and me. :)

She's so cute in the korean costume!

Ahh her bday coming so quickly shittttttt.

Bye~

Taemin's 18th,

2011-07-23T22:27:00.002+08:00

As i've promised. :)

Reason why i chose this picture of so many better looking ones is cos this exact picture is beside me now. Yeah lucky boy, you're on your own month's page for the calendar. Other members all not lol.

So here it goes:

Happy birthday Taemin! :) Wow, hmmmmm. You're so young. Haha, compared to your SJ hyungs. Uhhhhhhh, only 3 years older than me but SO much more accomplished. Debutted at 15. Wow. Not many can do that. Still remember you're the guy i didn't pay attention to, when watching RDD's mv for the very 1st time. Like i've said, Minho's looks is (Y) and I really liked Jonghyun's arrogance in it, KEY'S HAIR (Y), and yeah onew didn't get attention too. LOL. My thought was : " LOL WHY THIS GUY DRINKING MILK NO LINK SIA. " And you really i swear looked the oldest to me. DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE YOUNGEST cos you're ALWAYS in the middle dancing.

Yeah you're just AMAZING. Your piano skills ( I SAID MANY TIMES GUYS THAT CAN PLAY INSTRUMENTS (Y) RIGHT?) :P, your dancing, your voice, your skinnyness, your looks, your definition for your ideal type. LOL. I got to know that you're gonna perform here in SG in about 2 months time one week before your birthday and it was just like a hmmmm.. dream-about-to-come-true? Well basically 8 months back when i watched and read SWC Live in TOKYO's fancams, photos, and fan accounts, i told myself I WILL ATTEND A SHINEE CONCERT IN MY LIFE. AT LEAST ONCE, I MUST. So it was like, ahhhh, they're coming. Omg, i need to go. I need to cry officially WITH a reason now. :) Yeah, just started imagining you singing infront of me, MY EYES, i was just elated.

SO PLEASE, STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY. START DATING PLEASE. Haha. And come to SG safely for a successful 4th stop for SWC tour. :) I'll be there, i'll try my best. :)

Maknae all grown up. :') HAHA, happy birthday dearest. Saranghae.

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I can't wait for tests to end. Its really bad this time round so far. No confidence at all now. Really wish someone understands how hard it is for me, and just how much i want to escape from ats. How much i wish i could see ALL of them TOGETHER. Not 10. Not 2 and 3. Just everyone. Back to most perfect year of everyone, 2008-2009.

When it was mirotic, when it was sorry sorry, when it was replay.

Again and again, why am i born in the wrong place on earth. Rich but stressful country. I would rather a slowpaced country.

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Lastly and lastly, i realised sometimes, somethings, no matter how hard you try, it remains the same. This is exactly why i hate trying so hard, because each time i get serious and just try to change myself or believe in something, I get nothing out of it but only disappointment for myself.

他说过，只要一认真，一努力，就没好结果。我同意了。这回，真的真的要放弃了。

Gonna just be mean all the way. At least that way, the one getting hurt's not me. Realised this long ago, decided to change because i think i should try, and just ended up letting myself get upset. BABOH myself.

BACK. TO. SQUARE. ONE.

Aish, why didn't i just listen to what people said then.

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Finished MR.

Finished HTTG.

Finished SKKS.

Finished several movies.

Life's been sucky for july except knowing SHINee's coming and SJ's coming back. 5jib and SWC in SG fighting. :)

The most anticipated comeback of the year.

2011-07-20T22:09:00.004+08:00

Well for me, and at least i guess other few millions of people. IT IS THE MOST ANITCIPATED. COMEBACK. OF. THE. YEAR.

So ass proud man. 1 hour after the post. Its 6000 comments plus plus. :) Cropped the screenshot myself so it looks VERY small. MY MOST IMPORTANT TEN MEN COMING BACK MUAHAHAHAHA. I'm so tired but i still posted. Shows how much i want AUGUST 3RD NOW.

Another issue is regarding the JYJ's appearance on KBS's N7W. Personally, i think its SM doing the backdoor pressure. Pretty obvious isn't it, they're just out to spoil JYJ's any plans. And SO COINCIDENTALLY(NOT! _|_), f(x) and SNSD is the performers to replace them. HMMMMM I SEE. -.- So if JYJ goes on the show, it cannot be broadcasted because of the lawsuit, says KBS and they broadcasted SKKS with Micky in it. WOW. So what, only one member can be on the tv at any one point of time? Again _|_. Losing my respect for KBS, cos i thought they recognised ability and talent instead of siding with the more powerful side. -.-

Not saying F(x) or SNSD wad la, I just dislike SM. Not their artists. :)

Can't wait for the signing petition from JYJ's fans rather, to me, Cassies still, to get KBS's apology and explanation CLEARLY AS CRYSTAL to the public.

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Again, cropped my screenshot myself so it looks very small. Another most anticipated date of the year. SEPTEMBER 10. :) I.... don't know what to say if i do get the tix. Can i say my life's complete? NAH SHAN'T. If not they'll not come. LOL.

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Happy birthday taemin! Its 2 days late. I know, wanted to post on 18th itself but was just soooo busy these days. D: HAIZ. Tired week ever since july started. Really dislike july so far.

Because i still have work to do, and it's already late so, i'll elaborate the bday dedication next post, i promise. :) For the dearest maknae of Shinee. I'll do it.

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Having common tests this friday all the way to next week. D: Scared. Scared. AHHHH need to pass everything. So won't be posting i guess after SAT? I'll post smth on SAT. Note to self. :)

I really really really really hate menses. Random.

Okay bye. AMATH SO MUCH AHHHH.

P/S: I LOVE SJ AS MUCH AS I LOVE MYSELF. Well, my favourite quote of all time - MONEY CAN'T BUY YOU HAPPINESS, but it can get you concert tickets, which is the same thing. :) HAHAHAH. Can't hide my happiness for 5JIB. :) Gonna buy it no matter how much to support them. :)

It all ends here.

2011-07-17T17:18:00.002+08:00

Wow. It ended. The favourite series of mine of all time. Rewatched Sorcerer's stone, Chamber of secrets, prisoner of Azkaban, goblet of fire, order of phoenix, half blood prince so many fucking times. And i never once got sick of the series at all. Yeah i cried. The last movie was so. Beautiful.

I can't even describe how much i loved it and how wonderful the series is.

I can't even put in writing how Harry Potter has defined, shaped and constructed my childhood. From the tender age of 5 to now 15. It has really been a blessing.

The friendship of big seven over the 10 years. )': Especially the trio.

Friends who were willing to die for each other. Friends who fell in love with each other and misleaded everyone from the start that hermoine liked harry when she loved ron. Friends who lost family members every single episode of the movie. Friends who stood by, THICK AND THIN.

Really sad to see all the people who died cos of harry. Sirius, Lily, etc.

Harry. Ron. Hermoine. The golden trio. ♥

Dan. Rupert. Emma. Matt. Evanna. Bonnie and Tom. ♥

The best 10 years, 8 films, 7 books. More than just magic, but loyalty and friendship. Sorry, i'm being so emotional because i still can't quite accept the ending. All the way home after the movie, i was just tearing bit by bit unconsciously.

Thinking of how snape loved lilly all these years, protecting harry. Seeing him crying when she died. Seeing how he was good, all these while despite killing dumbledore who was already dying. And for one moment i really, wished that such a man existed in my life in future. )':

Thinking how dumbledore told harry not to pity the dead, but the living, especially those living without love at kings cross. )':

Thinking how hermoine and ron finally kissed. And when hermoine knew harry had to die in order for voldemort to die too and she wanted to go with him. To die. )':

Thinking how Professor Mcgonagall protected hogwarts and harry. )':

Lastly how Fred weasley died and others due to protecting harry and hogwarts. )':

Yeah i practically cried all the way home. Sat at the park listening to music and just thought all over about the movie i've just watched before going up my house. Can't help but just tear. AHHHHHHH harry potter just lives in me. Couldn't cry infront of my friends then. So shameful. :P Hmmmphs.

"No story lives unless someone wants to listen. The stories we love best do live in us forever, so whether you come back by page or by the big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you." - J.K rowling.

And now thinking back, when Professor Mcgonagall tried to attack snape when he wanted to kill potter, HE ONLY DEFENDED FROM HER. He never attacked. )':

Okay, i shall try and accept this fact. Aish. Don't know if anyone understands how i feel.

I want and need and must go to the harry potter theme park. :) One day, i will.

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Happy birthday JongHan! :D

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So much work to do again. I really want to hug someone so tight for like 15 minutes.

Its such a bittersweet day. More of bitter though.

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Yesterday was SHINee World Concert in Taiwan. :D It went well and ended successfully. Hope they get some rest. Glad that SG's the next stop for the concert. Its another dream i need to fulfill.

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Lastly and again, I love Harry potter and it never ends in my heart.

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*Harry sees Ginny and She sees him*

*Both hugs and kiss*

Ginny: "I know."

*Harry leaves.*

Omg struck me sooooo hard. )':

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Gonna go cry myself to death now. BYE.

Dinner at twelve.

2011-07-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

Yeah i'm eating my dinner like now.

And guess wad, its just soup.

Full from all the fast food just now.

Had my O's oral today and i think it sucked. ALOT. Ah nvm lol i wanna go poly anyway~~ Just drop HMT LOR worse come to worse. Blablabla. Kinda glad today's over. Been a really hectic and tensed-up week and i just can't wait for tomorrow to end. Ah, great choir again. OHWELLS.

Watched TRANSFORMERS 3 DARK OF THE MOON half hour ago online after downloading it. :P Clear max. :P The person filming it while watching it the cinema must be a pro lols. :) I think it was great? 4/5. The tense feelings and sad parts were there. Actress not any less hotter than Megan Fox. Pretty weird that she wears white ALL THE TIME in the movie lol. As usual, optimus is just so omg-handsome for a metallic thing ofc. I love BUMBLEBEEEEEE, cried when he ALMOST died. He's always there for Sam and i think he should be more powerful, or get a more significant role like Optimus. :) The effects and everything were improved from previous movie, and i liked the ending the most. Starting 30min all kinda ... Yeah?

I can't wait for sunday to watch HP7-2. :)

I really really. REALLY love my friends. Been thankful for all these while to have them, especially Shan ever since start of the year. Ah, encouragements.

Taemin's 18th in 3 more days. He's turning legal worldwide. (':

I'm going for SHINee's concert anyway. :) I mean, if i get the tickets la. :P 218 bucks. Ah, i'm broke. If only sometimes my mum liked them too. Probably this won't be a problem. But i know 218 dollars will be welllllllllllll-spent. Just like SS3.

Looking forward to SS4 and ANYONE WANNA BE LIKE CANADA AND DO SOME SMTOWN LIVE IN SG? LOLS. Aiyah sooner or later they'll come. SM wants money more than anything else. And fans wants idols more than anything else.

K, I sleeping w/o touching a single shit. Gonna go school early tmr to meet Mrs Philip for Amath.

P/s: I cried looking at all the H.P trailers from years back till now. Omg my childhood's ending. NOOOOOO.

Chukahaeyo Heenim :)

2011-07-10T15:21:00.003+08:00

You're the 1st person i noticed in SS's mv cos you acted in the drama which i've liked alot. I was like wow, he's in SJ. And that's it. I didn't bother to know more. Then when Hankyung left. I saw that article. It's still vivid in my mind that Donghae and Eunhyuk helped you out of your depression then. I realised how much you are inside that's just amazing. You love your friends so much and you're just so straightforward which is really similar to me. Your weird mars ideas, uniquely presented yourself. I can still smile and rmb during SS3, you and your lady heehee's performance. NO ARTIST would be like you and SJ. Wearing tight dresses, wigs and girlish makeup and perfectly look like a girl, and even prettier. :) CHOCOBALL :D Hope your new M&D group's music truly allow you to show whatever you wanted to. Saranghae heechul ah. Happiest 28th and imy when you leave for army. )':

Hmm, that's alot, ALOT, A.L.O.T of work i can die. I dread school so much these days. Gosh tired max. I wanna go back to the march - april days. 10th day past July. 4 more days i have O's Chinese oral. OMG I HATE ORAL COS I CAN'T TALK CHINESE PROPERLY. Then another 5 more days after that is Listening compre. D: D:

Next holiday is august. D: Got common tests again i think. Aish, national day come faster.

Still think you look best with blonde. :)

Ahhhh can't wait for Hae and won's drama.

Can't wait for Khuntoria next ep.

Can't wait for Hero's drama.

Can't wait for Micky's drama next ep.

His looks, his voice, his oddness, his dancing, his eyes. All five of them shares something which make them perfect.

Cried so much watching IY when Sunny Yuri and Hyuna left )': G7 saranghae.

Randomness in my post. Sorry. Long time no update i also dunno wad to say. My life so far is so-so. I can only say i have really great friends, and luck.

I need to finish up all my shows.

I need another holiday really.

I managed to finish all 16 eps of PR in a day then. WHOLE DAY USING COM. :P

JUNE HOLIDAYS COME BACK LAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

C : I will sing for this audition.

Hae: Ermmmm, if you wanna be a singer, your.. *points to his moustache and beard*"

C: I WILL SHAVE IT OFF!

Hae: *Points to him, smiling* I like your passion!

HAHAHAHAH He's so cute and nice. (: SS's era <3333333

Taemin's back to blond. Awwwwh.

Annyeong.

It's just not my day.

2011-07-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

One thing. We can't communicate. D:

Another thing. WE CAN COMMUNICATE.

Like ohmygosh why never switch. Meet you earlier then meet you later. Wah perfect.

Didn't go choir today. JUST DIDN'T FELT LIKE GOING. Seriously. Give me another reason why i should go other than for Nicole. :X Yeah think we also no mood go out so we stayed in school do homework. Not productive for me. I seriously rather do work than go choir. K felt super guilty all the way so i'm gonna attend everything now with jayi UNLESS REALLY GOT REASON TO MISS CHOIR. Validity of reason, I DECIDE. Screw all the 5 letter thing la. PEOPLE REALLY FALL SICK 6 TIMES PER YEAR ON CHOIR DAYS HOW. THEN THEY NEH SEE DOCTOR COS NO MONEY OR EAT PANADOL SETTLE HOW. Still don't accept uh? =.= I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY THEN. I just think this method to make ppl don't miss cca is abit. _____________ . Insert anything there la. -.-

I told her " I'm gonna kiss you, and if you don't move away from me, i'll take it that we are going out together. " And yeah, my first kiss was before my first love started. :)

D: D: Do guys like this still exist. D: D: SO OMG. ♥♥ He's perfect. NOT TELLING YOU WHO HAHAHHAHA.

O: Was texting with cowwie about random paths stuffs. Hmmmmm. She really motivates me sometimes. Okay kinda often she's always why i try to work a little harder. Thankful for someone who understands me and accepts me well.

This gives me headaches for what to do for her on her birthday. Shall start thinking and saving money cos apparently melly's cost me a bomb and i didn't do much. Regrets.

I have O's oral chinese like next week and i still don't know what to do. I'm not growing tall, not losing weight, not gaining either despite eating crazily much at night, not becoming hardworking, not doing work, not quitting my dramas and shows. Someone tell me where can i start. To be more hardworking?

I just rubbed my eyes and 4 of my lower lashes dropped. -.- I really alot ppl think of me uh. STOP THINKING OF ME. NO MORE LASHES ALREADY.

I'm tired. I should have nap just now. But texting took away the time. D:< HAIZ. I hate texting this is why. EMATH IS INHUMANE. D:< I'm crying omg cos i don't know what to do. SO STRESSED AHHHH. I wanna lie on mel's shorttttttt shoulders and just stay there for a longgggggg bus ride. (':

Impossible stuffs are always what you want.

I just want to quit school la. RICH GUY APPEAR NOW. THIS MINUTE.

K annyeong.

Pretty no matter what.

2011-07-04T11:25:00.002+08:00

Breakfast: Cheese brownies. :)

This year's NDP goodie bag i guess? is so nice. They used a tote bag and placed everything inside. UNLIKE OUR YEAR. The year we performed we got this SUPER huge black and red i think(?) don't remember, and its just so __________ . Insert any ugly word there. Then the year we went to watch they changed the design to some zippy kinda thing whereby you can switch colours and stuffs and i was pretty blessed to get the nicest colour then, blue. STILL ITS UGLY AND I'VE NEVER EVER USED IT LOL JUST THROW AWAY.

Changed my phone's pw. COS TOO MANY PEOPLE KNOWS LOL NO POINT HAVING PW. But i myself forget i change and keep using the old one. :P

Watched so many shows. AHH CRY UNTIL MY EYES SWOLLEN TODAY WHEN I WOKE UP. )':

Did i mention how much i love taeyeon's voice. Her main vocals position really _______ . ( insert any powerful word there)

NOOOO I DON'T WANT SCHOOL. HOW TO SURVIVE ANOTHER HALF A YEAR. GOSH LIFE SUCKS. D: D: D: I just wanna marry someone rich and support me for the rest of my life. Just provide me with computer and internet and a bed and pay for my monthly bills for meals and stuffs and each month about 200 bucks to spend when i go out. THAT'S IT. My life can't be more perfect. :P Told my mum this and she's like THEN BU YONG YANG WO UH. WO YAO MEI GE YUE YOU 500 KUAI HOR. I'm like -.- , thinking YOU HAVE TWO SONS, 500 hundred each each month got 1000 already, why want mine. :P DAUGHTERS ARE SUPPOSED TO MARRY OFF OK. RAWRRR.

Kay end of rumblings. Back to my dearest shows.

She's pretty no matter what unglam things she do. (':

Nothing struck me faster.

2011-07-02T19:21:00.003+08:00

Ever since about 8 months ago. Whereby i first realised the meaning of the lyrics for Shinee's songs. Mentioned Post here: http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2010/12/hello.html

I could cry even up till now each time i heard their ballads. Because the meaning's memorised in my head for each line. Listening to them singing their ballads on their concert = cry. Thinking through what they went through (Jonghyun and SSK's matter, Injuries.)

It's always how hard they went through to achieve that amount of success that makes me cry la. Don't be misunderstood, this post not about Shinee lol.

Nothing struck me faster then their voices.

Dbsk.

It's really a pity that i didn't get to experience alllllllllll the things they went through until now tvxq and jyj are just two worlds. It's like how i missed kyuhyun's car accident, how i wasn't into them when they just debutted. ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT. I only fell for them ONLY after they achieve success. And what the hell is it that i always miss their hard times. It's like, i want to be part of it all.

I didn't know a single shit about them, okay i knew but wasn't into them, and i just clicked on this video. And i cried. Without knowing what they went through, how hard it was and etc. It was just a performance at their concert, after debutting into Japan successfully and achieving sold out concerts, red seas right before their eyes. Just plain listening to the them singing, and i just teared. No one, no band, had ever struck me faster.

A week ago i saw that video, i cried.

After one week, after listening to the song probably more than 100 times, i still cry. But this time, i realised how hard it took for them to achieve that, and how much i want to be part of the red seas from now onwards.

Like for the quote for ELFs, "You may not be there from the start, but you can be always there till the end."

I'm all in for 5forever. That stage will appear just like how only13 will occur someday. Again.

And now, i understand why they cried. It was so hard for them. They totally made it easier for EVERY kpop group now to debut in Japan. And what they went through, is no lesser than SJ's and definitely more than SHINee.

Made it into Guinness world records for having the largest fanclub in the world.

Proud of your love.

Shinee Day 19,20,21,24.

2011-07-01T19:27:00.003+08:00

Day 19.

Funniest member.

This is hard lol. Ehhhhh hmmmmm, really hard. Aishhh. I'll probably tie between Onew and Jonghyun. People would normally choose onew or key, and onew's recognised by the members as well. Sooo. Hahahah okay call me biased la, Jonghyun. :P Probably of his personality and natural humour he just has like Show. He's so blur and cute at times and that alone makes me laugh. Yeah funniest for me is Jonghyun.

Day 20.

Favourite Shinee moment.

Every moment is loved. Simple as that.

Day 21.

Favourite Shinee couple pairing with any other Kpop star.

Let's see.

Jonghyun with Yoona.

Onew with Taeyeon.

Key with Tiffany.

Minho with Yuri.

Taemin with Sulli.

Don't ask me why. I just thought they would look nice with each other. Esp Minho and Yuri.

Day 24.

One member you would want as a brother.

Onew. He's the only son and i just thought that he'll want a younger sibling alot so he'll dote on me alot i guess. And he's just so caring towards everyone. He'll be a great brother. :)

Skipped a few days as well. Will find time to do if i feel like.

Gonna find a picture to post.

In the meantime, shall just say some random stuffs. I'm tired. Really tired. Had some serious moodswings today, and i myself can sense it. One moment i'm so happy another, i'm angry. -.- I'm sorry for being so moody today cos yeah dam tired and worried for stuffs.

Aishhh, i wanna just be like the sec two days where i go M's house lounge there to just slack around with her talking. Or at Jy's house talking till 10+ then i'll rush home without any work done. Hmmmph.

Tuition on sunday. And i bet none of them remembers what i asked. Nvm.

Today went JP lunch with Jayi. She's soooooooo cute lol. We had a hard time deciding where to go and she had to pangseh her frens D: Whoopsies. Sorry. Well had a longgggg chat like 2hours about everyone and anything. Was happy at the end of the day and she's just so funny talking with me interrupting almost every 5 seconds haha.

Yoona's narrating voice, <3

Taeyeon's lead line, <3

Jessica's end line, <3

Probably the best arrangement always. Start a song with Taeyeon and ends with Jessica. Hmm.

Nice bag.

Was looking at bags online and every bag's like soooo common. As in the design not appealing to me la. But i like this. :) Colour matches clothes well. As in the bag colour matches every single colour of the clothes you wear while carrying this.

K bye.

Chugha haeyo!

2011-07-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

This post is set to 12am :)

1st July. Date for two amazing people.

First amazing one, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORRY! :)

Stay happy, healthy, and of course, prettayee. Glad to know that things are fine now for you. ^^ I hope it always stay that way, and remember it always take two parties' effort in any relationship. When it seems like you're drifting apart, don't just let it happen. Make a change. Do something so that at least you tried, you know it. Its not like you're giving up, it's just a step that probably turn things around. :) Keep up with your studies and everything. Wish you best of luck in relationships too! :P :P I love you, dorothy lee! :P

Secondly, Happy birthday leeteuk! :D

You're like 28. Lol, as i've always said that's really old cos i call my 28 year old brother old as well. But for you, things can just change! :) Your age is way over what an idol should have, and i feel really secured that ELFs do everything to keep you in the group cos from the start SJ was supposed to be like a graduation group whereby when a member joins the group, one will leave the original group. You're no doubt the best leader anyone could ask for. You're so strong. Really. I've learnt so much from you. The amount of love and care you give towards your members, nah should be brothers, is way admirable. You put everyone before yourself and 83line with you and heenim is the best brotherhood i've seen in groups. Omg i'm crying lol. Okay, uh, really thanks for existing. Happiest 28th, and please please stay healthy. I just. Don't want you to leave the group for the army enlisting so much. )': Its okay, i'll know every single Elf in the world anticipates the 13 stage again. AHHHHHHHHH )':

Don't leave. )':

2009 video never gets bored. :)

I'm definitely marrying the person who proposes by playing the piano. Love guys who can play instruments so so so so much. :P SADLY I DON'T REALLY KNOW ANY GUY WHO CAN PLAY PIANO. I mean apart from the choir ppl lol. Guitar's cool too. I LOVE DRUMS. And i don't mind violin. ^^

Chuka haeyo Dorry and Leeteuk! :)

It's been like what 2 years. I don't get why can't you let go and let's just be friends again? I really don't know what else i can do. Anyway i'm thankful for the gift you gave for my birthday then. :)

Hmmm i really hate projects. Ugh. Especially with people who don't contribute. D:< Miss them so much. I'm like so mean right. I don't care. It's my feelings, like apparently i'm always, LIKE SRSLY ALWAYS happier when with them. I should probably been abit more smart or hardworking last year, so maybe i will be in same class as one of them. This thought crosses my mind so often these days. All because of you. Zzz, aissssh, i don't care le la. Not worth it anyway.

Ohwellls, happy birthday again dorothy and leeteuk.

P/s: I'm supposed to do chinese.

P/s2: July's better be awesome and taemin's birthday better be a great day for me. D:<

P/s3: You have no idea how tired i am this week. I can die like now.

Happy birthday Jerelyn! ♥

2011-06-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Jerry! :D :D This post is set to 12.00am. Heh. I don't know what to say actually. Other than the usual of-cos, wishing you health and happiness like i do to everyone. Hmmm, just thanks. :) For being part of my life.

This poem? or whatever is it la hor, is on the book you gave me.

Think its very meaningful.

To realise the value of one year,
Ask a student who failed a final exam.
To realise the value of a month,
Ask a mother who give birth to a premature baby.
To realise the value of one week,
Ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realise the value of one hour,
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realise the value of one minute,
Ask a person who missed the train,
To realise the value of one second,
Ask a person who survived an accident.
To realise the value of a millisecond,
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.
Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have happily.

Hahah finally finish typing. Edited abit myself la :D

Yeah happy birthday dearest. ♥ Saranghae.

Speaking about awards. I don't know how long SJ haven't won an award. OKAY ITS JUNE NOW NO ONE HAS AWARD CEREMONIES IN KOREA FINE. LOL. I shall wait till next GDA. If Daesang's not achieved by Leeteuk's departure, I think i'll bomb korea. Hahahah okay just kidding. They deserved it. So much.

Edited my blog photo. Wanted a change. Of everything.

I have no place to put my newly bought clothes. Aishhhhhhhh. D:

Lastly, I just want to say........ my top 40 changed again. ^^

If anything I hope it makes them embrace who they are because there’s a million times where a lot of people say, “Oh I wish my life was different or I wish I had this, I wish I had that."
-Selena Gomez.

This is why i adore her.

K: You're fat.

Z: DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE.

K: You're UGLY.

Z: DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE.

K. You have terrible taste in music and bands.

Z: HOLD MY BAG, I'm killing someone this instant.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING FUNNY OMG. Rofl.

ANNYEONG. SOBS GOT TUITION TMR. )': Its okay, there's shann with me.

Happy birthday Nichkhun :D

2011-06-24T20:13:00.002+08:00

Happybirthday Nichkhun! :D

Today's music bank's comeback was !@#$%^*(#$%@&%#^. LOL. Super high.

Never ever ever seen any comeback stage so crowded with people. Just like in the MV. JYPE(Y)

PUT YOUR HANDS UP IT'S Nichkhun's 23rd birthday! :D So young lol omg. Can't wait next episode omg please kiss already.

Just in case Sunday i chiong hmwk until no time.

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY JERRY! :D Really had a nice time that day out with others. :D Neoprints still in my wallet oh. :P You're FINALLY AS OLD AS ME. I'm really not used to being the oldest with out with you guys lolol. I love you real loads. :D ♥♥♥

P/s: Victoria's probably the prettiest china girl i've ever seen. Not probably. Definitely.

P/s 2: TVXQ <3 Micky <3 Xiah <3 Hero <3 U-know <3 And of cos my Max ♥. :P

Put your hands up! :D

2011-06-24T03:00:00.001+08:00

PUT YOUR HANDS UP! ♥

Whee 2pm! Still like it more when Jay was in then. Ohwell. :X

Their best song so far? Super nice mv as usual for JYP's artists.

Why can't SM just spend more money on their mvs as well. I mean, its so not as interesting, except Before you go mv, and ....... It's you mv was really nice.

Others really seem cheap.

Oh RDD's mv also nice.

Esp recently all the mvs are like SNSD's jap album trailer whereby they just used weird animations?

Did i mention? F(x)'s new song's mv had fantabulous clothes omg. LIKE DAM NICE. Best clothes for ANY artists i've seen. I mean they all have their own type of style of clothes and like 3 sets of clothes or smth. Really daebak. Snsd cannot even win. Cos they wear like the same thing for all 9 person or similar just diff color, so its more like fighting against their own members see who wear until nicest, while f(x) is just omfg mad chio.

On second thoughts, maybe Sm don't want people to just watch the mv and like it. Maybe cos sm want the ppl to pay more attention to the artist's voice? Dunno la, whatever the case, their artists are the best already why don't want make better mv. Nonetheless, I still love F(x) and Snsd :D

Seems long when i last posted. Oh its only 10 days. LOL. Went to Bangkok the past few days and came back with ALOT of stuffs. Okay la, not that much but still my retail therapy worked i guessed? :D BROUGHT HMWK THERE YET DIDN'T TOUCH A SINGLE SHIT. Geegee man me.

Okay gonna post random stuffs k.

K this is the cake for mother's day my sis baked. TIRAMISU FTW. Melts in the mouth.

Clothes i've bought from my short shopping trip. :D Really satisfied, except that i didn't get any bags at all. Sigh. I never take picture of the shoes i've bought and some other clothes cos there's no space on the hotel bed lol.

Judging from the photo, i think i bought 4 shorts, 2 high waist shorts, 3 jeans, 18-20 tops(?) idk didn't count exactly, 4 dresses, 1 swimming costume(OMG FINALLY COS SG ONE TOO EXP FOR ME TO AFFORD, finally can dump the old one lol), 2 hoodies (finally as well, plain hoodies i've been searching whole sg with reasonable pricing and with colours my stupid school accepts), belts, wallet, rings, bracelet, and finally mad chio hairclips which these few are not seen in the photo.

Closer look. :D Love my dresses, :D Mummy says i should wear dress more, and i replied its not convenient, and she said then buy for what, i said for the purpose of coming here. :D

Notice something? HELLYEAH THE SMILEY FACE 2 PIECE TOP IS SO SIMILAR TO Sulli's in hot summer mv's. I mentioned i loved their clothes right? Saw the top and was like mi ( mummy in short), wo yao na ge. LOL.

HELLO SHAN, here marks the start of my messy house. :D I don't lie right, so yeah here's the proof that i've been saying how messy my house is. Below the soft toys is a small cabinet filled with my clothes. And beneath the hugeeeee pile of clothes and plastic bag filled with clothes lies a small drawer as seen in the photo and below all these lie another small drawer filled with clothes as well. :D

Okay so this is the cabinet beneath the soft toys. Look at the amount of clothes up there 1st k, very less hor, remember k.

As seen from the previous photo there's these weird 3 boxes in the cabinet, here's what inside them. All my necklaces (I said before i have alot so don't ever buy necklaces etc for me unless real diamond k.) , bracelets, earrings( even though no earhole just buy to collect cos pretty), rings.

This bigger box contain all the LONG LONG dangling necklaces, some bracelets and rings as well.

The small drawer beneath the huge piles of plastic bags of clothes. Messy right, cos its too dam small and i just squeeze everything in. So the considerate me decided to make it neater. :D
Here you go. YES MY CHOIR COSTUME IS SUFFOCATING IN THIS SMALL SPACE BUT IM SO SORRY I DON'T HAVE SPACE FOR A #$$%^&* LONG DRESS. Here contains 1 costume and 5 dresses i didn't wear at all except for the black and white stripes one, 1 top also neh wear before, and 1 jumper worn several times and got tired of its inconvenience when visiting toilets lol.
The drawer got two pull out thing idk what's that called or just below the above one lies this la hor. This contains my belts and weird stuffs my mum placed inside, my facial masks which i don't even put nowadays lol pure lazy. :D Dam i'm still upset with the fact that i forgot to bring back one belt from Bangkok wtf. D:
Okay, relate back to the cabinet underneath soft toys, this is the below layer inner stuffs. You can see from the photo whereby the 3 boxes are place infront of them, that's the outer. So the inner has my 3 jeans, old choir costume stuffed up there and a skirt at the right side. Left side lies 4 high waist shorts with 4 other shorts below. The most below shorts is the one i can't wear cos too tight. FATS. X.X
HERE'S THE FRIGGING CLOSET I TOLD SHAN ABOUT MY CLOTHES BEING SQUEEZED. From sharing half half with my dad cos he have so less clothes i can die, to now i'm like 1/4 of the closet only cos my DEAREST mum and bro just simply stuffed their clothers like that. D: K i here got alot of dresses about 10? and like 10 other tops, 2 jackets i think.
Below where you can see my clothes being squeezed by my bro's clothers. WTF RIGHT. The small tiny pile you see at the most bottom left used to be SO HUGE PILE But now squeezed until like that and the clothes being squeezed fell to the back whereby they're still being SQUEEZED WTFBBQ.
That's why i don't ever wear all these clothes at all and claim that i have no clothes cos they are fucking squeezed inside the closet and i have to physically dig it out by pushing away my bro's clothes.
Beside the humongous closet, is these. The two pink boxes plus the one above them are all filled with my clothes. The most top one is whereby my mum folds the clothes and just dump them there like my uniform and stuffs can be found there. The two pink boxes are filled with my clothes as well but i don't open them at all lol. LAZY LA, just take whatever i see at the most top.
Remember i asked you to remember the top photo whereby i have very less tees. Now see here, i placed some of the tees from my overflowing box up there in the previous photos here so that the overflowing stops temporary. As you can see, got 3 piles right.

The most left 2 piles (Another pile is blocked by the pile infront) contains all my home clothes and like choir tee, camp tee etc. The middle pile are tees out for casual dates with frens or tuitions or just meetings. The most right pile block by my two bright coloured fbt are long sleeves shirts and other tees for more not so casual but still sorta casual, if you get what i mean.
Ancient photo pasted on the wall along with my other childhood photos. Just look at the hair length i had omg. LONGER THAN BUTT I REMEMBER LOL. And skinny and short like some malnutritioned kid on the streets. OMG I MISSED BEING SKINNY. Hahaha.

My table! :D Packed them all nicely today.

My brother's messy one beside mine.

Been saying how my table's filled with people i love. K see some photos up on the magnetic part of the table :D
Shinee calendar! :D June's gonna be over and you know what, TAEMIN'S PAGE IS NEXT! :D

Neat like some ass right. Proudly by me. :P Oh the above SJ photo frame is given by Jayi carina melly and binjie as one of the gifts they gave :D Yeah beside it is a DIY photo frame i done and me and my bro's childhood photo inside.

K ignore the things behind my table cos that's the kitchen part already. SJ clock by SHAN! :D And a DIY small drawer with two handphone strap? string? IDK LA, hanging. One is Jonghyun and the other side blocked by my cute fan is SJ given the same 4 person mentioned above on my birthday as another one of the gifts. Above if you can see, got Shinee photo, me and my big bro baby photo in the doraemon thing, and onew photo at the most right small photo frame given by rachel last time my birthday. :D
Beneath the neat table. LOL. BOOKS AND BAGS. Notice the huge white box.
THE OTHER SIDE. Boxes and boxes. Correction tape given by Shan :D
Inside the intel box lies stufffs like these, and also boxes. LOL.
Underneath the huge birthday card (100% handmade card by Cheryl and the other maroon yellow card by cowwie), are boxes. LOL. Purple one contain my albums ( Taylor swift's fearless, Justin bieber's my world 2.0 by my bro last year birthday, SJ's 4jib bonamana, and other photocards of celebs. :D), yellow one contains all the cards i've received in my entire life. Write me notes or letters, it'll be in. :D
Yeahh white boxes contain shinee cups unused. One by Christine, one by Zhiming. The other one by yanhong i'm using already :D NOTICE THE LONG LONG THING at the below of the box. The piggy thing is a musical thing. Spin it and it'll play a really nice melody.
YES THAT LONG LONG THING IS A POSTER OF HIM. Given by Zhiming as well. Ohmy, sure cost alot. Hmmphs, thanks! :D
Asked you to notice the white box just now right. Inside the box contains all my bags. ANY bag. Except school bag. Alot of bags are unseen cos blocked by the bags above.
Its so filled that i need to place heavy stuffs on top so that it'll close completely.
YEPS. :D
My mickey photoframe with the photo at Port dickson 2010. Omg seniors ♥ And yes, introducing you the cute octopus below given by my cousin, and its name is Toto. :D

Okay at Bangkok the hotel camwhored abit with my bro.

With my sexy mum. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LOW CUT HER TOP WAS. I'm targeting her shades next birthday prolly. LOL, gucci light weight shades :D Was like eh mi, you strike 4D again can buy another shades anot, i want your this one. AND SHE DIAO ME AGAIN.

We slept in the same room. Mummy slept another room. LOL.

OKAY OMG FINALLY FINISH. You have no idea how long i took to blog this. LIKE 5 hours. D:<

Omg i hate blogger photo uploader. 20mins 5 photos wtf.

YEAH OKAY 3AM, i'm gonna finish my drama and sleep with a super hungry stomach. ):

Holidays are ending in 2 more days. AND you know what. Homework untouched.

Well, like as usual only.

Habits are habits.

Procrastination kills.

AND.

I died a million times. :D

Annyeong!

Love keeps going.

2011-06-13T16:37:00.003+08:00

Love keeps going not bad uh :D
Yi feng sure ends up with xuanxuan and therefore never marry meile. Then yilie sure chase her then they end up together. :D EXPECTED BUT STILL I WANNA CONTINUE WATCHING. Cos i think cyndi became ALOT prettier for her new album. I like her reddish brown hair and fair complexion. ): But Mike's new image still, not used i guess. :P After liking him from Devil deside me, then fell in ASDFGGJDSAD Love(?) with SJ, comparing again, like OMFG can't compare. KOREAN GUYS (Y)

All in all, i still like Show/Wilber/VANNESS OMG ANOTHER ONE, best. For Tw dramas that it. Actually Aaron's acting also not bad leh. Just maybe he gets roles that )': yeah. VANNESS collaborated with koreans alot. Kangta from SM sumore. :P He's legal to be in my top 30 going 40 list. LOL.

Sorry, kept watching dramas these days.

City hunter is just indescribable. Over taking BOF in my heart alrd.
With Jonghyun singing one of the OSTs, plus point.
With Lee Min Ho being a super handsome skilled-in-everything person, and his hair is just @#$%&*, plus point.
With Goo Hara being one of the actress although she's childish in there, plus point cos i like KARA. :P
With another super handsome guy idk his name but he's the prosecutor in the show that's so handsome which is rare cos dramas rarely has both male leads so @#$%^& wow, plus point.
But again, with Korean dramas, that's just possible. :P

SO I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT EP. )':

Finished Dongyi. Did i mentioned that already?
I like how the king loves her so much he's willing to give up everything for her. )': And her son is just so adorable that i like his acting more than xiaoxiaobin. His is just more natural. XXB very hmmmmmmm cry-able only? :P

YEAH YEAH DRAMAS :D :D

Rewatch-ed EHB episodes, Idol army SJ season and 2pm season, Intimate note SJ's OMG I LAUGHED UNTIL TUMMY PAIN EVEN THOUGH 3RD TIME WATCHING ALREADY, SJ's Shinee's SNSD's night star. Still Shinee's funniest then SJ's then SNSD's :D Rewatched Personal taste as well, although i ff parts which were boring, but now watching lee min ho inside, LIKE TOTALLY CANNOT COMPARE TO IN CITY HUNTER. Since all dramas need wait next episode out which is like a week more. -.- I'm starting on new HK dramas. :D

You see why i can't survive A DAY without my computer or ANY computer OR JUST internet.
I'm thankful for the person who created internet. :D I don't even like going out these days cos of the dramas and shows. LOL. Like totally more interesting and funny than going out. Won't get late, won't get tan from sun, won't spend any money, won't get angry cos of what people say when u go out with them, won't need to say anything that hurts others but its just me, won't need to think about what to eat which requires money -.-, SO IN CONCLUSION PEOPLE, my life is awesome the way it is. :P TOO LAZY TO GET OUT OF HOUSE.

I think i might die from usng the com too much D:

But it's okay. :D Yeah bye, back to my drama. What drama? Um, now is Yes sir, sorry sir. Tavia <333

OHWAIT. JONGHYUN WON THE RECENT IMMORTAL SONG 2 EP :D YESUNG CAME IN SECOND. Woohoo SJ and Shinee. :P Smtown prolly fulfilled other's dreams in paris. What about mine man. SS3 was a dct. Make all my dct can. Although even they come i don't think i can get tickets and i'll cry even harder cos they are in my country, so close yet so far, and i can't see them. WELL, second thoughts, don't come la hor. :P I can afford to dream longer. :D

On shuffle : 2AM's this song is most played these days. Stuck in my head the chorus lol. ALL IDOL ARMY FAULT.

Idol army SJ season screening on channel V taiwan. WHEEEEEEEEE. Rewatch again
SHINee HB screening on 826 as well. HAHAHAHAHA. :D

Life's never been so smooth. BYE.

June, annyeong.

2011-06-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

It's late but yeah, it's june. Half the year passed. D: Scaringly fast. Feels like 3months only.

Wellwellwell, ITS JUNE AND ONEW'S PAGE ON THE CALENDAR. :D
I know i've said this umpteen times but. Dam i miss my com. ): REALLY DON'T LIKE USING LAPPY. Screen so small. So fast no battery need charge. Although it doesn't affect much cos can just leave it charging. BUT I JUST BU XI HUAN OK.

Yeah so if you noticed, my ^^^^^^^ up there added Fx and tvxq. :D Just thought that since i loved them alot too. SM LOVE. :P BoA's loved too ok. Just don't want put solo artist up there la. :P

If you remember i have my 20 most impt men inmy life and if you're smart it can be figured out.
But i said my top 30 have been increasing so yeah gonna reveal got who. HEH. :P

1-20 = :D You know who(s).
21. Yunho. (tvxq)
22. Changmin. (tvxq)
23. Nichkhun. (2pm)
24. Wooyoung. (2pm)
25. Junho. (2pm)
26. Jokwon. (2am)
27. Kikwang. (Beast)
28. Yoseob. (Beast)
29. Seunghyun. (FTIsland)
30. Seungri. (BigBang)
31. LeeJoon. (Mblaq)
32. G.O. (Mblaq)
33. Kimbum.
34. Lee Min ho.

I'm so nice to add in the groups as well. :P Other members of those groups also like la, just you know, these managed to went into the list. :D

It was in no arrangment from 24 onwards. Like, they are on the same level i guess. :D Just like 2-20 are same level. COS NUMBER ONE IS LEE DONG HAE. OOPS. Just told ya.

See this and you'll like my man of my life sooner or later. HA. I BET MY LIFE.

Although i wished so much he's playing the good guy so that he'll end up with the girl. But sadly, he's mean in this show, BUT OFW, he's still so cute and being a mean person in the show will never change how much he means.

PLEASE SCREEN SOON OMFG SKIP BEAT/EXTRAVAGANT CHALLENGE.

Dongyi's getting abit boring. But ohwells, i'm finishing. :D

I haven't touch my work. AND zzzz PROJECTS.

Yesterday went to do project but end up talking most of the time. After that went lot 1 with grp members to watch Kungfu panda 2. SO LAST MIN. LOL. Well, had fun but i was tired like shit. Slept at 3.30 and woke up at 2 today omg. LIKE EXACTLY 2PM. MY ALARM RANG. AND THE SONG. WASSSS...... I'll Be Back by 2PM. LOL.

I'm tired. COS DONGYI IS LOADING SOOOO SLOWLY. It's okay. IDOL ARMY TIME.

Shinee Day 18

2011-06-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

I skipped day 15-17 cos i was really lazy to find. Plus all my favourite-dddd videos are bookmarked on my com. Not my bro's so yeah. I'll do it when i have time k. :D

Day 18 - The best dancer in Shinee.

No doubt it's him.

From popping to freestyle to samba to salsa or even tango.

Like i've always said, a man who can dance is what you call THE man. Lol, whatever dance it is. INDIAN DANCE. MALAY DANCE. CHINESE DANCE. At least he DARES to. And he absolutely can call it a skill or talent. Sorreh, was relating to some *AHEM* people who teased the indian dance guy.

Like hello. Full of respect for him. He's the effing thing that makes the whole indian dance different and unique from other schools.

Ohkay back to topic. Yeah. He dances so naturally and each time on stage that he can't dance cos he's not supposed to, you can see him trying to contain his dancing to himself by clapping and tapping his feet to the beat of the music playing.

His dancing in the group is recognised by everyone including his members. Each time they have to send a member to dance or solo battle, it'll be him. Every single mv, during the song chorus, he'll be in the middle dancing. In Amigo live performances, he has a solo dancing part. In replay as well.

I like how much he improved not only in dancing but singing as well. From debut at 15 years old to now he's gonna be legal worldwide, 18 soon. His improvement and how much he grew is just incredible.

The best dancer in Shinee, Lee Tae Min. :D

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Hmmmm. I'd love to say more. But think think think. Aiya everything keep to myself better. SINCE I DON'T WANT TO BE MEAN AND UNFRIENDLY. Shan will laugh if she sees this. Yuppp, back to my shows! :D :D I'm facing the com too much these days that i eat lesser and my eyesight gone ALOT worse. Probably by 800 degrees. LOL.

So many projects and work incomplete.
So many words unsaid.
So many regrets remained.
So many people unforgotten..

Hope is a dream that is not asleep, then.
I can only stay awake? Rawrrrr. I rather sleep.

DRAMA. DRAMA. DRAMA.
MOVIES. MOVIES. MOVIES.

Dam i watched so many romance movies today i should probably go bang wall cos i shouldn't watch cos i will cry and i did. Dam all these touching scenes and sad endings cos of some stpid misunderstandings or its-all-too-late-and-another-man-appeared-and-he-treats-me-so-well-that-i-can't-give-him-up-for-you kinda thing. ESP WHEN THE PERSON THE GIRL SHOULD END UP WITH IS THE PERSON I LIKED MORE. RAWR you fool. You've no idea how much he liked you okay. AND HOW HANDSOME HE IS. AND HOW ROMANTIC HE IS. So what the other guy designed a 80+ storey building for you. So what if the other guy waited for you for 3 years until you reappeared in his life. SO WHAT. :P:P

LOL PAISEH I TOO IMMERSED IN THE MOVIE. Don't you just hate it when the female lead ends up with the male lead you didn't prefer as there was 2 male leads. THIS situation occurs so often that i think the directors are stupid or the scriptwriters love to twist happy-and-expected-endings into a not-so-satisfied-but-still-happy-ending-so-that-the-audience-don't-get-what-they-expect-and-feel-surprised. BUT FYIIIIIIIIIII x 100000, the surprised factor often becomes EW YUCK WHY LIKE THAT HUH.

Yeah. :D

Just like in BOF how Jandi ends up with Junpyo instead of Jihoo. But that's still okay cos Lee Min Ho is still romantic and rich and whatever he loves her as much as jihoo.

Just like how in Love Buffet, Xiao Feng ends up with Daye instead of Yichen.

Just like how in Devil's Disciple, Cheng Feng ends up with Shui Ling instead of Zi Long.

Just like how in the movie i've just watch as well.

HMMMMMPHS. ): ): ):

OKAY DRAMATIC TIMES OVER. Gonna go back to my drama now. Bye peoples. :D

So goodbye, don't cry and smile.

2011-06-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

So goodbye, don't cry and smile. :D
Yeah, last performance with seniors. Eclat was just plain awesome. Tiring yesh of cos, that's why i'm sleeping like now.

It's all coming back. Rather, did they even went away. I don't know. I was so certain for 5 months that they did. Rawrrrrrr. D:

My life's been boring plus tired plus effed up. COS MY COM BO INTERNET AHHHHH. I also don't know why. My brother say call to help me ask, bet he didn't. Grrr. Heng my 2nd bro lend me com. :D I've got my phone as well. It's just slower. BOTH my bro's com and my phone. I WANT MY COM. Like !@#$%^ times faster.

I'm half unconscious already. My feet are hurting and have bruises. ): I hate court shoes.

Once again, Eclat was awesome, and i love my seniors. :D

So if the chain is on your door, i understand.

2011-05-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

So much on my mind.

I miss having someone who knows what i'm thinking about always. I miss constantly talking to you too. I miss how you'll see through me always. How you'll always go : "Don't lie please. I know you too well. " I LEARNT ALL THAT FROM YOU.

RAWRRRRRR.

I don't know how to communicate these days.

Don't feel like talking + don't know why words can't come out even though i just thought of what to say + don't know how to talk in a nice manner + don't know why i'm behaving like this.

I need retail therapy so much. Regret spending too much money unnecessarily. Now i need more money for everything. SEEMS LIKE WHEN YOU'RE POOR YOU NEED TO BUY MORE STUFFS RIGHT.

Moreover, holidays i have no pocket money.

I just want to spend my holidays with myself. NOT GOING FOR SOME STUPID ASG THING. Can't wait for Eclat to be over -.- Can't wait to graduate from CSS and proceed on with my life.

I'm sorry, but this is just another one of my not-so-satisfied-at-every-fucking-thing day.

Well, the twenty most important men in my life manage to brighten it up easily.

With regards to the new replay mv jap ver :

It's awesome. Hmmm how to put in words. K, it's like. A grown up version of the one 3 years ago. They definitely look much better, older, hotter, cuter, and yoona's just so amazingly perfect that there's nothing you can really dislike about the whole mv.

Maybe its just me. I just think that Taemin singing the opening line which was jonghyun's don't feel the same anymore. On top of that, he sang alot more too. I mean, minho could have taken one line or two instead of taemin getting most.

Well, its a new mv in a different language, so it ought to feel different and fresh. Nonetheless, its still sang by the same people, my five shining men out my 20 most important men. Plus yoona's just too pretty. Can't think of anyone more suitable than her.

I look forward to meeting them in my life someday. I believe i will.

Tired.

Donghae <3

Super Junior <3

Shinee <3

Yoona<3

Yuri <3

Sunny <3

Tiffany <3

20 most important's not gonna change.

Howover, Top 30 have increased. If you get what i'm saying. :P

Point form.

2011-05-24T23:15:00.002+08:00

Thoughts i've been having:

Don't act like you know them all so well or claim that you love them if you even bash any single one of them. So true. -.-
Choir's like everyday. Even more than during SYF period. -.-
Finally it's Wednesday. Shan and i have been looking forward since like 22321352572 days. So much to talk.
Yuri's just too skinny now. Please be healthy and stay like you were. You were amazing the way you were. Pains me.
I miss my friends. Dorry + Jerry + Hannah + Rachel. Any time gonna meet up? I doubt so. Except for Jerry, all of us have O's next year. WHICH IS SO EFFING FAST COS MAY'S ENDING ALRD. -.-
I really really miss SS3 so much. Can't help but keep watching fcs and i'll start sobbing all over again. LOL.
Hae <3
I really don't like talking to you you know. REALLY DON'T LIKE.
Tomorrow Mingsiew's not going to sch with me. ):
I don't know why but you're on my mind AGAIN. IT'S BEEN LIKE A YEAR AND HALF. Get out.
I just think the school's ridiculous. Like hello, how many people are attached la. IF every couple also must catch then no need teach alrd la.
I'm broke. I DON'T KNOW WHY ALSO. Like all my money gone. GG la, 300 for tuition, then i need change specs lens + buy new contacts. Results like Kns don't even feel like asking for money from mummy. GUILTY.
I want to go out so badly and shop like @#$#$^@!!$^ Bo money. Saving alrd but can't seem to save much.
Tomorrow got health check up. SURE ASK ME GO BACK BONE CHECK UP ONE. BET 10 CENTS. BET ANOTHER 10 CENTS i'll not go.
I wanna fall sick so badly now.
It's finally the right time.
My main point of MAY:

KYUHYUN'S 5th official years since debut yesterday ^^

I love you evil maknae. <3 Especially your voice.

Second main point of MAY:

It's Shinee 3rd Anniversary tomorrow. What can i say? They're awesome and i hope they'll stay together for eternity. I know i'll meet them surely one day. I'll make it happen. :P If my dream came true once, it'll come true again. SM town best. Can see all ^^ 5h concert WHEE. Yeah right. Like they'll come anytime soon. IF THEY FREAKING COME NEXT YEAR, BE IT SS4 OR SHINEE WORLD CONCERT OR SMTOWN11 I'LL KILL PEOPLE COS I'VE O'S NEXT YEAR. RAWRRRRRR.

Continue shining in the best place: Shinee world. ^^

Onew.

Jonghyun.

Key.

Minho.

Taemin.

5OTP. :D

REALLY LAZY TO POST YOU KNOW. Rawr.

Nights.

Khuntoria ♥

2011-05-15T17:00:00.002+08:00

Omg they finally kiss for the 1st time next episode!! Can't wait. HAHAHAHAH :D Imma fangirl. :P

AHHHHH life's been really relaxing these week. Hoping for more such days. STAY AT HOME watch shows, do random polls and researches then checking on the polls results :P, checking almost every follower on tumblr, Sort out photos and music files, :D So satisfied. Hee.

Sian next week whole week choir. Why so suay choose until us to perform. Now got like cca thrice/four-ice a week. Sian. Sian. W/o them it just feels empty+uncomfortable. I don't really like it or maybe its just not used la. But yeah i'm sure i totally like it more before. Now i don't find alot more interest in going. -Sigh-

I don't know what to say. Its too much a change to handle at the moment. Like, its all really very totally not fun now. Like so -enter text here- now. To the extent that i really don't like it. Arrrrt ooollllll. So formal, so political-lish, so gap-ish, so weird and just ugh.

I dread it now. Hopefully it'll change.

Well well, at least i'm liking life nowadays. Talked alot and spent alot of time with friends! :D Especially shann. Its like you guys will never understand how you let us feel like. -.- AND I KNOW YOU THINK ITS NOT YOU BUT YEAH ITS YOU.

Tomorrow games day and somehow or rather i think it'll suck.

Pffffft, i really love weekends at home and hate weekdays at school now. Cos things just happen continuously without you guys knowing and i'm just glad i have shann with me through it all. I think the lesson i look forward to the most is just chinese + recess. Like i go down w/ a not-so-good mood and come back with a super good mood.

What can i say? They're awesome people.

Well, happy birthday SUNNY! :D Haha i texted jy happy birthday sunny at 12 am today. :D

Pretty edit :

Chio ttm.

Of cos, the man of my life. :D Airport fashion ftw. :D HAE <33333

Losing my blogging interest lo. I'll stop for prolly sometime unless things change. Cos, i tell my things nowadays to people but not blogger. I still remember my shinee challenge dont worry! :D

Just in case you guys missed the post.

Heres the links:

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/shinee-day-1.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/shinee-day-2.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/shinee-day-3.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/shinee-day-4.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/03/shinee-day-5.html

http://love-tastethbes-t.blogspot.com/2011/04/shinee-day-67111213.html

Nothing nice of any sort.

2011-05-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

It's not nice nor pretty. Just a simple note of my gratitude. I know it's not as well-done(?) as others. :X

I'm nt going to cry. By tmr, i'll be prepared. (: I'll miss you guys so much.

Eclat

2011-05-09T15:14:00.003+08:00

Dreamt about the performance.

Hugged Huiting and cried in the dream like super hard.

D: D: D: D: D:

I won't make it happened in reality.

RAWR.

Overseas end of year trip please. So they can go.

I don't like dreams.

GETTING MY 6-MONTH PHONE SOON. A 6 month plan. ^^ HEEEEE. :P

It's May and minho's month. :P

2011-05-06T21:45:00.002+08:00

This is late but, okay hello MAY! :D April's been really eventful.

SYF'11 Gold.
15th birthday.
Exams started at the end of the month.
Jonghyun's 21 years old.
Alot more, happy or not. Hmm, it's been a really tiring year until now.

Wellllll, Minho's page is may on the SHINee calendar now. Weeeee. My table's filled with photos of people i love. :P SHINee's calendar, SJ photoframe (Present from M+BJ+C+JY:D), SJ clock(Present from YS:D), photos of seniors w/me, old happy times photos w/ Sunny ong. Loving my table but it's super messy cos of all my late nights studies this week. Screw MYE.

But it's over. And i know i'll fail to meet my targets. Sooooo, i hereby declare that i'm gonna fail Physics + Geog + Amaths + Emaths + Eng + Chinese + Chem.

Wonderful right, only chum i completed. LOL.

Anyway i'm prepared to fail seven out of eight alrd. Not like it's the 1st time. X:

Exams really drain my health and brain. I'm so so so tired. Just feel like staying at home all the way these days. I WANNA KBOX LA OMGGG.

I just contradicted myself.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CARINA ♥♥ :D

I'm broke, and my phone spoil. Awesome.

I dunno what phone to get. TSK. See why i love my current phone so much. COS IT'S SMALL AND EASY TO USE AND ITS A EFFING WALKMAN WITH 8MP CAMERA. Sigh, Vivaz pro? But very ugly. ): I want Xperia mini pro but its only gonna out in 2 months time and its so cute. LOL.

Nope, no iphone for me. X:

Too common and hell each model of iphone is produced almost annually and its just effing awkward to have someone holding the latest model while you hold the previous one.

And i really don't like the size.

It's like holding half a cadbury chocolate in your hand and this chocolate is cannot drop on floor one. No doubt its design is pretty. But way too common that people, like me, think that everyone who holds one iphone4 white at the moment naturally think that they are holding the best phone on earth.

Yeah right. Stereotypical iphone holders. -.- Not that i wanna stereotype you but don't you admit that you DO FEEL THAT WHEN YOU USE YOUR IPHONE IN PUBLIC, you have this small sense of proud in you cos you think that you have a phone that everyone stereotype it as best.

Glad that when i read phone reviews, that's so many people like me.

SO I'M NOT ALONE.

Ha. Beat that.

I promised to upload photos all the time but yeah i always don't. Unless its from tumblr and i can just copy paste the html code from the elements or else uploading 5 photos by 5 will make me hate blogger all over again.

So here it is. Cos Red is officially approved by me to me that it's a wonderful hair color and only someone like him can make it so ADAGSFARHARTKAGRGAR Indescribable that red hair isn't a BADDIE BOY COLOR cos he's so cute i'm gonna die. :P

W/key. :P AIN'T HIS HAIR AWESOME. Can't wait for their japanese debuttttttt. I'll officially unhate jap songs. :P

Mr taxi taxi taxi soutou jeukshi jeukshi jeukshi. ♥ Yuriiiiiiii.

He looks the best! :D Loving all their new hair. :D I really can't wait for Skip beat/glamourous challenge to be out. Although Siwon is the good guy and Donghae is the baddie, i still hope donghae will end up with the female lead. SORRY HE'S MY LIFE :P

I know it'll be my favourite taiwan drama of all time. :D EVEN FATED TO LOVE YOU, Autumn's concerto, HMS, Endless love and alot other dramas need to stand aside. HEH.

Korean wiseeee, ermmmm, BOF , Playful kiss, Shining Inheritance still vivid in my mind. :D BEAT THAT OKAY SKIP BEAT. :D :D

Gonna sing my heart out and make them ask me stfu. :D

BYEEEEEE BLOGGER AND HELLO YOUTUBE ^^

Please recover.

2011-04-28T20:31:00.003+08:00

Today was Chinese paper. SUCKS MAN. ZXCVBNMDKAIFHE LA. Didn't finish the paper! D:< Kept coughing like some noisy ass. )': Grrrrrr. My 8 MARKS UHHHHHHHHHH. NVM. I can pass. But i want my A. So that i won't need to do homework. TSK. Ass la. Stupid cough. Please recover like now! Go away please. :P

Okay Chinese paper down. Seven more to go. :P CAN'T WAIT FOR 6TH MAY 1145am. END OF MYE :P Hahah omg so fast la.

Set some target: PRACTICAL ONES OKAY.

Eng: Overall B4.

Chi: Amitoufo please A2.

Amath: PASS.

Emath: PASS.

Physics: PASS.

Chem: PASS.

Geog: B4.

Chum: B3.

"I closed my eyes.... and pray." Yeahs, praying okay! :P

My targets are based on my CT2 results:

Eng: B3.

Chi: A2.

Amath: E8. );

Emath: F9. );

Physics: F9.

Chem: C6.

Geog: B4.

Chum: B3.

RAWRR. Off to study. Not gonna post for the next few days unless got timeo. :P

(edited)

Forgot to say, tmr's SJ's 2000th day. :P

Siwon: " You may not be an ELF from the start, but you definitely can be an ELF to the end."

Yeah, not from the start but its been about 700 days since i loved you guys all the way till now. 29th January 2011 is a date i'll never forget cos i met the 10 v v v v important guys in my life. (:

Super Junior ♥

For all those times.

2011-04-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

Dying from maths and sciences. )'':

Spent alot today. On useful stuffs though. Because it's 12.30 now and i just finished doing my amath mock paper for 1.5 hours. It wasn't tougher than the 2010 MYE paper, but it was REALLY tedious. Glad i survived. THINK CAN PASS LEH. HEHEHEHEH. :P Okay.

Tomorrow studying with Melly. ^^

Gotta sleep now if not tmr i can't get up. THERE'S PE TMR. Which means, i have napfa tmr. SIGH, missed PE for 2 weeks. Sdl got pe can't get used. Okay nvm.

Will update at a later date. WITH PHOTOS. (:

11 more days.

2011-04-24T23:16:00.003+08:00

Can you believe it? 11 more days to End of MYE! I'm gonna be a nerd this 2 weeks. (: After that, i can take a long, long, long, really longgggg rest. I can't wait for end of Midyears for the following reasons :

There's gonna be choir! Really miss choir alot. Still remember last time sec 1 used to really love having no choir cos no need stay back! But nowadays, even no choir also need stay back almost every day. So i rather have choir to de-stress.
It's gonna be June holidays! People over the other half of the globe's having their summer break really soon too. I envy them. They have like wad 2months of break? Sigh, why am i born in the wrong country. Nvm, i'll marry some drop-dead gorgeous blonde angmoh and my kids will be superly pretty and hot. And they will not blame their mum for being born in the wrong country cos they effing have 2 months of summer break which is impossible for equatorial countries which their mum lived in, and they get to play with snow. Probably get to experience one or two earthquakes or hurricanes.
I can finally rest myself and EXERCISE. Gained too much weight ever since 2011 came.
I can go out with my friends really often and my cousin! :D
I CAN SLEEP LATE WITHOUT WORRIES.
There's gonna be choir. ^^

I know i repeated ok.

My toe really hurts. ): Random.

Well, i'm doing amath while typing this at 11.30 nw. Amath really is killing me and i can't help but want to drop it. )': Well, i'm gonna drop Physics or Amath this year anyway. I don't want so many subjects. Imagine, if i drop one subject, each week, i have 2.5hours more of self study. IF i drop amath, i have 3 hours. AND THAT'S ALOT. That would mean i have at least 5 hours of self-study per week for me to catch up on hmwk and syllabus. And i think that's much better than failing for so many times. See how la, if end of year my physics got at least b then ok. (: Same goes amath, if got b then ok.

I think i did work hard for CM2. CM1 i failed 7 subjects passed 1. CM2 i failed 3 and passed 5! :D

Hopefully mid years i'll pass all. I'm starting my revision probably this wednesday.

Lalalala, my cough had been around for officially 3weeks. And it's still here. Nothing works now. I'll just cough until my lungs decide not to itch therefore my aesophagus won't itch as well so i won't cough.

I finished all the notes for them. (: Hope they like it. I SPENT SO MUCH ON THE PHOTOS. Printing photos are so cool.

Had haircut and scalp treatment and massage today. Awesome max. Last package ): Hopes mummy signs another soon! My shoulders feel better now, cos my heavy bag made my shoulders tighten so much. .__. Mummy just gave me 140 bucks. :P YAY TO STRIKING 4D! :D Although not much money, still its money okay 6K lehhhh. :P

I miss Port Dickson times so much recently. They meant so much to me unknowingly.

Bye.

Wasted another day.

2011-04-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

Key's new hair = (Y)

It's similar to DONGHAE's :P Both color and length.

Yeah, wasted one whole day. Watching shows, again. Had a really long sleep of 12 hours and woke up at one in the noon today. Had the "Lying on bed all day doing nothing" mood.

Watched TV alot today, like suddenly HBO and Star Movies and 856 had nice nice shows. :P Me likey megan fox in transformers: revenge of the fallen. :P Then proceeded to watched Mystery 6 on yt. SUPER SCARY AT TIMES LA. Dam the ghost can. )': Poor Donghae. I know it's not true, but still, he's unlucky.

One of the many parts. :P SCARY AT THE FIRST PART OKAY. I WAS TERRIFIED.

Anyways, finished watching all 6 eps. (:

Sigh, i really wish i can extend time. I need so much time.

Okay, started on the notes i promised myself i would write for them. :D Gonna print the photos probably tomorrow. I teared while writing and editing the photos. )':

Watched Mubank today too!! F(x)'s comeback stage (Y)(Y)! Today was Mubank 600episode special too. Although the dance didn't seem as interesting as in the mv, it was still nice. I liked Victoria's solo part alot.

My phone's on low batt but i just don't wanna charge it.

I don't know why.

I just want to let it go flat.

Friday never seem as good.

I have alot to say but i can't say it here. Hmmmmm.

I'm petty and blunt.

Or in nicer terms,

I'm straightforward and over-reacting.

Welllllll, i'm happy now though. Byeeeee. ♥

Not even once more

2011-04-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of being the only one trying anymore. (: I ain't gonna try. Not even once more.

Drank coffee and i'm having headache. GREAT. My body and brain don't like coffee. Okayla, its my 1st time trying so maybe not used to it. I still have 2 geog papers to complete and i didn't bring home my TB. Awesome me. -.-

My head's practically spinning, but i'm still smiling. I kinda think the feeling's like on drugs? LOL. Okay idk. Its just weird. ~~Sugar~~, coffee rush? :P

I feel apologetic, really. But i really didn't mean to not do your work okay. I'll do it tmr i promise, teachers. :P

Gonna sleep soon. Shall wait with YS till she texts me. (: Meantime, let's continue danger-ing with F(x) and do some work. :P OH SHE JUST TEXT ME. :P Okay.

Tmr got interview. Hopes it goes smoothly and Huiting didn't reply me as always. Her phone's ever suckier than Ms's one :P HEH.

BYE.

I'm in danger!

2011-04-20T17:32:00.002+08:00

Yep. It was as good as i wanted it to be. So much better than NuAbo i think! :D

Krystal's just so pretty and Victoria's soooooooooooo awesome.

Yum.

Pinocchio! Remember me (:

Danger's a really nice song. And i think SM's so smart for leaving the nice songs for their 1st album's title track. Heh.

Yeah okay.

I'm scared and i have tons of hmwk undone. And you know what. THEY ARE ALL DAM DUE TMR. See why i can't miss school? :P

Okay Jsyk, i was having fever so i didn't go sch on tuesday.

Told _ _ _ _ _ to MELLY. I'm only excited about him all day. And ykw? I SAW IT. :P It was in there for so long and i really didn't notice i swear. ^^

Shall go bathe and do hmwk really soon. Mingsiew's so tired today. O.o She snatched my line of i'm tired. And we were actually really happy today until i came home. Ate secretly in class and talked lame and played lame.

Gotta go.

With one little action.

2011-04-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

I miss those stupid fun times.

The times whereby we had so much time to do lame and fun stuffs.

We get to gossip about each other behind each other backs. :P

Childish. Yet real, and really fun.

It feels more mature with them now.

Even though we ain't that childish together, they're still a fun group.

I just miss those times whereby we still have the time and mood to do those childish acts.

I'm sick again.

YAH. FEVER AGAIN. Gonna sleep after eating my panadol soon. Amath was a killer. Did 3 wksts, but left 80% blank and skipped 50%. If you get it.

I need to watch a movie.

I need to eat frozen yoghurt.

I need to sleep for 18 hours.

I need to shop for 4 hours.

I need to see them again.

I need to see them.

I need to watch a movie.

I need to eat Macs and KFC again.

I need to have fun again.

I know i repeated the movie twice. Cos the need is too much.

I need to sleep now.

Tomorrow need to reach school early. JUST COS I MISSED MY CHEM PRAC. )':

I miss sleeping in during weekends. Okay, i feel like this every sunday night.

LALALALALA, I'm happy today i don't know why.

_ _ _ _ _ = <3

HEH. Bye sexys.

As promised.

2011-04-15T20:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's gone, we gotta keep moving on.

Yup. I'm done crying over it. A gold. I can suppress everything. (: Commonwealth Chorale is always a GWH in our hearts.

Yesterday was SYF. Early in the morning was singing in school, then went to SOTA. Had our last rehearsal, visualisations, calming ourselves and. Yeah, we're on stage. Nervous but weren't to that extreme. Probably cos i knew there were 70+ other people standing with me, and there's nothing to be afraid of. It's my 1st SYF, most likely my last as well. Sang our songs and before we gonna sing our last song's last line after all the laughing, i was already tearing. Every single thing just came back to mind, all the morning practices - trying to reach some high note that usually we can easily in the afternoon; all the singing infront of the school - to overcome stage fright; all the saturday practices, vocal camp, sectionals, combined practices, workshops, exchanges - to improve on every small thing, even if each practice, we only learn one thing better/correct a small mistake, it was still memorable. And yeah, in that 10 minutes, we put in all our hard work for the past 4 months or so? And it was over.

Everyone cried. Well, not all but most girls. We hugged each other.

Mr Foong said we're good.

Mr Kwei said he's proud of us.

Mrs Cheah said we're brilliant.

Teachers all said we did a great job.

Seniors who graduated said it was awesome.

Each and every person seemed to hint a little that there was a chance for GWH. Probably this was why when the news broke out to us, i just. Don't accept it.

Okay i know i said i'm done crying but yeah, tears just roll down laaaaa. LAST TIME i promise. :P

I'll never forget how my SLs tried their best to make us remember our dynamics, timing and other stuffs. How the seniors tried to make the almost-impossible mission, into a almost-possible one. The test on everything of the songs. The visualisations. Everything.

Shit mans, i think i just made it harder for me to accept that they're gonna step down and leave choir. Talked with reine about this and she tried so hard to convince me. Gosh. I dread this as much as i dread growing up.

ANYWAYS, it's over. All the best to Chinese dance! GWH! :D

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Okay, shall update my life abit. So next time i read my own posts, there's more for me to reminisce. :P

My fifteen birthday:

Received wishes through calls, texts, fb, and in person. Really enjoyed my birthday. Had probably most hugs ever in a day. Received gifts and cards from the people i've mentioned in previous post. There's some belated ones: NICOLE LIM, NICOLE LOH, SHERMEL, JEIDY, ZHIMING, CHERYL, YIJIE.

Thanks to those who hugged me too. Too many to remember (: Think i still felt surprised Jing Hui hugged me. :P HEH.

I still remembered how happy i felt that instant. It's like everything's really behind me. I've tried so long and hard to really let go. Every small thing that reminded me of you, is forgotten slowly. I'm glad.

I'm thankful for the moments, so glad i got to know ya.

Melody's fifteen:

Went JP to get her a present and small cake before showing up at her door. That meanie didn't wanna open the gate for me so i had to act like i was a resident and sneak in the condo, as always. :P Talked and crapped until the guys came. Did hidden camera cos they were so boring, kept watching TV. Sixuan acted she's angry and upset over them, and they really believed for a moment. Leonard came into the room representing the guys to apologise and others were outside doing some funny stuffs to cheer her up. Wanted to turn leonard into our act as well but i think he went to tell the guys and then they started to act angry. LOL. -.-

Well, then blahblahblah, some unhappy stuffs, but ended up happy playing murderer again. Then, had bbq! But i didn't eat anything but watermelon and water. Started to have a fever. Cut the cake and had cake smashing except me cos i objected violently cos i wasn't feeling well. So warm and tired and didn't want to waste energy running away from the cake and washing my face. I was really really unwell. Felt like going home, but i remembered i still have to eat the cake i bought with melody alone, which means i had to wait for everyone to go home 1st.

Did cleaning up and went up to continue playing some games. Slowly they went home one by one, and took photos before leaving the house. Finally, ate the cake with mel and shared with her sis and another slice for her bro. WAS TASTY. Purposely bought strawberry flavour so i can eat cos i can't eat chocolate. Went home dead tired with my brother whom i called to come and walk me home.

The other day i didn't went school when it was her actual birthday. Sorry babe.

Yeah. WORDY LIKE @#$^. NEVERMIND, i like words alot. :P

Anyway, i'm looking forward to this so so much. Krystal+victoria♥♥ F(x)'s comeback! Woohoo.

WHEEE! :D