Just one more time.

Saturday, August 27, 2011, 5:10 PM

Been a really long week. Eventful. Hectic. Filled with. Up and downssss. Notice the plural form of down. Don't even know where to start.

K monday was really sad la, cos of Heechul's leaving. Cried so much. So much. Similar amount to when Hankyung's leaving. That was 2 years ago. I still remember how vividly, how much heechul had to handle, and how hard i took it. Now it's like a cycle. All over again. Still remembered how much Super Girl hit the asia's charts, how much it promoted the group, 3 months after, Hankyung. Hmm, left? With a whole new album this april, SJM became a different group. Realised how much they went through. Again. Yeah my whole point is just, how much it changed things. And how much it hurts.

Like i've asked many, and myself. 2 years. Can i really wait another 2 years. And until then, enjoy a stage of only 8 people, since next year, it'll be leeteuk leaving?

And i asked the most important question of them all, crying.

"When will i ever have the chance to see a 13 group on stage again?"

Even now, tears just dropped, thinking of the probability again.

I know no one around me understands truly how it feels. They've never experience a full 13 group, and the pain of seeing them decreasing in numbers each performance. I don't even know how to continue this anymore. So sensitive right now. K, let's just end here. No matter what, their place never changes. Right here. In my life.

Anyway thanks so much for Shan and Mel and Fatty listening to all these crap from me the past few days. Even though they don't understand, yet a listening ear was all i need at times like this. They listened, encouraged, even though it didn't help LOL, er, and just. Made me feel like, there's always a positive side to things. :)

Tuesdays are usually the suckiest day laaa duhhh. Cca, all the core subject lessons, even worse, going to school with the whole-day-sian-over-heechul's mood.

Wednesday was funnnnnn. Went to ArtFriend with Geog project members and laughed so much i cried. For one moment when i really laughed, i forgot about all the sadness i had within me. But then it came back soon after, so at Artfriend i became sian. Well, This day was Yesung's 27th birthday! :D

Happy birthday Kim Jong Woon! You're 27 worldwide now, and i hope you stay healthy and happy always. Your vocals are honestly the best in SJ and one of the best among all Kpop idols. In fact, your voice is very unique and i like it a lot. Although personally i like a more soft voice like Ryeowook, or Donghae, i admit you're the best in singing among SJ, and KRY.

Still remembered how the whole audience sang It has to be you during your solo stage in SS3 SG. :) You took off your earpiece and listened to us. It is, definitely, the best OST song of 2010, and my favourite song from you. This year you sang so many OSTs, proving how much PDs want you to raise the drama's popularity.

You're 4th in SJ according to age and again, as much as i don't want to admit, you're so good looking and according to looks ranking for me, you're above Donghae by this little bit. :P You look way too younger than your age. Happiest 27th, and i love you.

On 21st Aug it was Kibum's 24th birthday as well.

Haha okay i took a picture whereby you can't even be seen. Oh wells. :P HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY KIBUM :D Hmmm, even though you don't participate in the group's activities anymore since 2009, but i still treat you like a SJ member. I watched your movie, and searched for news on your acting. Honestly, i don't understand why you have to drop SJ activities to concentrate on acting, but i believe you love SJ alot too and for you to do that, you must love acting so much. :) I remember how you and donghae spoke in english in Full house, hahahahaha. And in EHB, how cute you were. Just last year, i read in an article about your words to every single member in SJ. And i deeply trust that you'll always be with them. :) Saranghae♥

Gave Jingyi's her present yesterday! She loved it haha, i'm so happy. Spent hours doing it and monehhhhhhhh printing photos, and stuffs. I'm broke. ): ): Still, i crave all the nice nice food suddenly and i'm gonna eat them all with shan tmr. :P K ytd went to Jp wanting to watch the dancers perform but they performed earlier than the initiated time so i missed it. Went KFC dinner with bro and his friends and met Jingyi with her family. We talked about 30 minutes or so? Yeah, was really happy yesterday. :D Until night lol. Started crying again. HAIZZZZZ. Watching SJ's so emotional. They cry i cry. They happy i laugh. D: D: X: X:

Its, 5 days to Heechul's leaving. )': And 15 days to SWC SG. :) I really hope all these important men of my life stay healthy and happy. :)

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Superman's MV is honestly. SAD. It actually made me tear. LOLOLOL. Yeah basically it had clips of SS3 which brought back memories. :) That 3 hours was the best really. People are here and there critisizing how stingy SM is, saving on MV monehhhh. I agree, but its SM style people. Their mvs had always been cheap at cost, and not as nice as YG's. If you just realised how they work then, i'm so sorry for the disappointment. Honestly the song is what it matters. Superman. :) :) Its a total 4.5/5 for me. I liked it. :)

ITS SO WORDY OMG THIS POST. D: Okay, my eventful week. :) Gonna eat dinner now, and gain fatttttsssss.

Leaving you with my 4jib and 5jib. :D SEE THE VAST DIFF HAHAHAHA. Okay the cost also had a vast diffffff. Well 4jib was given by my big bro. :) SO HAHAHAHAHAH. BYEEE.