Ziyan. :D Fifteen and growing. SuperJunior.
SHINee♥♥♥.DBSK♥♥♥.SNSD♥.F(x)♥.
This is not the reality i wanted.
( Letters, )
Day 1 - Your crush.
Day 2 - Your dreams.
Day 3 - Someone you’ve known this year.
Day 4 - Someone that reminds you of a star.
Day 5 - The person you miss the most.
Day 6 - The person you wish you could be.
Day 7 - The person that gave you your favourite memory
Day 8 - Someone that changed your life
Day 9 - Your future spouse
Day 10 - Yourself.
After watching the first episode, i was really happy. :) But seeing the preview of ep 2, i. Don't even dare to watch it. 10 members crying. Can die right now. Been sooooo sian these days that i can't even snap out of it. Honestly, this is affecting me more than i expected. More than gaining 10000kg, or parents being some assholes. I don't even know why. Who effing gave them the right to mess up someone's life. Oh yeah, me.
8 members stage. Came faster than i expected.
Tearing every night, every shower, every quiet and alone moments, afraid of the days left.
Guess it'll be over soon. Probably after the day itself, i'll accept it totally already. I'm fine. :) Continuing to believe. In the people i had, and will always believe.
So sian that i don't even want to do anything but watch them.
I think. I'm having some depression lol. Haven't been like this ever since 09. AH GOD WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEE.
Plain depressed.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011, 8:32 PM